A nice young lady, or so I thought, died of a heroin overdose a few days ago. My buddy took her to senior prom, and I briefly messed around with her after that. She was into theater, really artsy, and cool to hang around with during those times. I guess in the past two years she got caught up with a scumbag and he dragged her into his sphere. Got mixed in with a bad crowd, and heard she had family and self-esteem issues too -- which almost certainly led her to hard drugs.
I posted last week, but I got thrown in the drunk tank last Saturday for shoving a bouncer. I vowed to get sober, for my own sake. As I sit back and reflect on my path to sobriety, it's crazy how prevalent this culture of drugs and intoxication is in our society, and how just a few unlucky breaks can drive us to make irrational decisions and physically harm ourselves. For all I know, I was heading right down that path. I've never had a problem with dependency to hard drugs, but I've experimented quite a bit -- MDMA, mushrooms, hydro, xanax, cocaine.. Alcohol has affected me the worst going back as far as junior year of high school (as you can tell by my username). The past few months, the drinking has picked up too in conjunction with more frequent drug cocktails on the weekends. I'd find myself casually drinking on Wednesdays -- downing a six pack and maybe a few shots -- and then wake up for work at 6 AM feeling like utter shyt. It all culminated in last Saturday's episode that got me in trouble.
But this week has been great, I'm getting solid sleep and waking up early for week. My skin is clearing up and the bloating from beer is subsiding too. Got my grades back from the first term of this semester, A- and a B, dodged a huge bullet. I'm a first semester junior now, things are not going to get easier from here on out. I'm fully motivated to realizing my potential now, there's too much to discover and experience. And I'm not going to waste my prime years in a drug-influenced haze, barely retaining the memories I'd like to forget about.. I'm not gonna preach to anyone if they choose to get fukked up, I've been there countless times. There's no sense in that.
Im gonna just do me and strive for more. No more wasted days. It's Friday night and I just took a break from studying to browse The Coli for a few minutes. To the people going out tonight, have fun. I'm not, because I got a lot of catching up to do.