blackestofpanthers
God forgives, you are forgiven.
I just saw a person dead in the road from being hit by a pickup truck 

I like my gf but I just need some space every now and again. Feeling suffocated.
You need to try and get a social life i know you have said on here plenty of timess you dont care about friends or females but humans are social creature who need social interaction and it's obviously affecting you. Even if you are not the most social person you just have to try and put yourself out there NEVER turn down an invitation to do something social unless you have to and when you get their try and network with other people and you will eventually get friendsSuffering from Depression again, I want to get help but then again I don't, i don't have health coverage anyways. I don't tell fam because odds are they probably won't care, I don't have any friends to tell plus work has got me stressed out. Only people I share this stuff with is you guys, if y'all read it. Just want to disappear somewhere brehs, no one would care anyways.
You need to try and get a social life i know you have said on here plenty of timess you dont care about friends or females but humans are social creature who need social interaction and it's obviously affecting you. Even if you are not the most social person you just have to try and put yourself out there NEVER turn down an invitation to do something social unless you have to and when you get their try and network with other people and you will eventually get friends
beggars cant be choosers we all have to do things we don't want. I have been to plenty places where i dont like the music or the people and still go to places where i dont like music or people parties but i still go to the same clubs and parties, and they are a very good place to network. try joining a gym or sports team and hopefully you will pick up a couple friends and break into their social circle, all you need is literally one person to let you into their social circle and your life will change.Don't know how, the 2 guys I became friends with in my childhood only because my parents knew theirs so it was forced. It lead to them talking shyt about me behind my back but I never said anything because they were the only guys I could call a friend so I rolled with it until a year after I got out of HS. I sent them an email then cut them off after. That was 7 years ago, haven't met anyone I could call a friend since. Its not like people are inviting me anywhere anyways. I don't like parties, clubs, etc. Just how I am even though I've been to them. shyt is boring to me and pointless