Every once in a while, I get a reality check and I'm grateful. But today, I'm was very happy about what I went through this week (90% of these situations I created). Had thoughts of just snapping. But then I'm grateful that feeling passed without causing harm to self or others, and realized I'm well enough to have an open-mind. Those suggestions I didn't want to take, I can now consider. I'm doing better than I feel.
God willing, I won't get high today. I have enough support to cry, complain, and yell; now it's time to put my best foot forward, prioritize, and stay in the solution. And it's all embarrassing and uncomfortable, because I have trust and abandonment issues. But hey, it gets better.