Had a long introspective talk with myself yesterday. I realized if I died right now (at 21) I wouldn't have accomplished anything. I haven't done shyt. There's nothing I can hang my hat on and remotely say that I would be satisfied with. Too many regrets already. I've really just been wasting my life. There's a lot of stuff I need to fix and address next year. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I've never enjoyed growing up or been happy about it...but it's something I need to accept. I'm not going to get any younger. Hell I stopped caring about my birthday once I turned 18. I like to take the easy route out of things...I can't do this anymore. I have a skewed perception of things and the only way I'm going to fix any of this is by really getting off my ass. Hopefully by this same exact time next year this version of me will be completely dead.
I only have 3 goals next year
1. Be healthy (this includes mental health)
2. Be happy
3. Get money
Damn I've really been wasting a lot of time. Can't get any of it back
shyt's gonna change...it has to.