Still hoping for brighter days.
Still wondering if im even as qualified anymore after being out of a job for over a year.
People with a fraction of my linguistic capability, extroversion and interpersonal qualities.... Having awesome careers and lives. And all i do is fret, feel sorry for my woes and self, wondering why i cant get a good job. Thinking ill tank interviews because i cant respond to mathematical related troll questions.
Nearly 34 with nothing to show for it.... All this talent but no drive is a damn travesty.
Idealistic... Waiting for something to hit me with fortune. But my moms dead so why does anything else matter.
Cant even take my girl out without feeling like i can be severely broke the next moment. Why is she even with me? I cheated on her. I got fired for embezzelement, but i promise im trying to right my wrongs but i paod the ultimate price.
3 of my siblings died... I was chosen to live and i have to do something with this thing called existence.
Literally just a trigger away.