I have to get revenge and be more successful on everyone who did me wrong in the past
Sounds about like what i was going to post . . .I'm exhausted i graduated recently but I've spent a majority of time in the hospital looking after my grandma . . .i have mixed feelings though because i don't really mess with my fam like that better yet they cut me off and i accepted it.
Its been six years since ive actually had any contact with them yet now i find my life on hold taking care of someone i don't hate but i don't feel i should owe or be obligated to help . . .all those favorite nieces and nephews and grandkids yet the black sheep/outcasted one is the main one up here . . . I haven't been home in months . . . I pay rent at a place i barley recognize . . .people stop by but only to act supportive and say *oh i can only stay five minutes* the fukked up part is after all this is said in done they'll lie and say i never came up here and will continue not inviting me or my mother to family functions.
Grandma has 6 daughter's and 2 sons each have their own kids that have their own kids . . . Yet with all this family only 3 people stay here to keep watch . . .
These motherfukkers came the day of her surgery(she had to have her leg amputated) and they left immediately after they heard she was out of surgery without even going to see her . . I walked back into the waiting room it was a ghost town . .. i understand work and other shyt but damn you really gon let two 50+(both still working although one might lose her job after continously calling off) old ladies and one 25 year old take blunt of this heavy burden.
Both my aunts tired as fukk one is getting sicker . . They both mentally exhausted which makes it hard to talk to them . . . I'm trying to keep my mind intact so i can get the fukk outta here with a shred of common sense left . . .family ain't shyt least not mine.
I know you suppose to make sacrifices for family but it wasnt a few months ago nobody was calling or checking on a nikka hell i had the house phone cut off because it was just a bill . . . Now its all smiles and bullshyt . . .
Smh i just realized my shirt is buttoned wrong oh well my mind slipping
