It's so frustrating that i'm in such a good position now to do everything I wanted and the thing I wanted the most I missed it because of my own stupidity/laziness/timidness

Why did I have to learn the hard way before I got my shyt together?

I would have worked harder months ago to be where i'm at now back before the summer

Could have saved myself a lot of trouble if I would have stopped being such a procrastinator and got myself ready for the things I wanted.
But a nikka learn and grow from every disappointment. Had to change myself so I can change my experiences. I'm better for it I guess cause I learned and it put a fire under my ass in the way I needed. I'm not who I was and I'm happy for that too, really had to look at myself and change myself. I got everything I need to be successful and I set myself up pretty good to be caking in 2 years. My savings stacking so I can get a crib soon and I got a decent whip. Got a nice job that will turn into a career after I graduate. Just hate things had to happen the way they did before I learned. But a nikka always learn, I always learn.
I can't let no man out do me and I can't let nobody get one up on me ever again. Best believe I don't quit when I got something to prove. All I got to do is put my mind to anything I want and I'll get it.