Breh, I have these weird coincidences with time. Usually life be chill, but when it happens, it happens for a reason and it weighs heavy, so much that it's like a message to me. I know it sounds weird but it's just a thing for me.
Like, this chick I been in a long distance relationship is from Jamaica. She very smart, pretty, funny, virgin, and has a lot in good qualities that I dig the most. We whatapp everyday, we skype. We tried to meet up but we didn't have any luck with time yet. She seems so genuine, and so special to me.
So, I just found out a while ago after 3 years that she lied to me. She's been lying to me the whole time. One thing I do not fukk around with is lies. I hate lies. Being in a LDR you have to rely on trust so heavy, because your not there, and I have a very hard principle on lies. You can do anything else and I'll be cool, but telling me lies is the worst way you can really do me wrong. Lying is just the worst betrayal in my mind. How can I believe anything in those 3 years you told me before that might of been the fake?
So, of course we been talking about everything and she said at one point that she might not be able to have kids. I said I understand, that's cool, that doesn't bother me. We can always adopt. She never really knew why, exactly, but she was gonna go to the doctor and found out. I found out how exactly today because she just told me, "My doctor confirmed that I can't have kids; my tubes are blocked. My doctor says I has some infection, but can't pin point which one and it's probably chlamydia, and it's too late to reverse it."
So my mind is like hold up, chlamydia is STD. You can't be a virgin with a STD.
So, I asked how she got it, and she told me, "I probably and most likely got it from my ex, a guy before you." She had unprotected sex the first time with him. Not only has she had chlamydia for over 3 years, she also has endometriosis. Which explains the bad pain when she has her periods.
So, I asked why you lied to me? She says, "Because your a nice guy, always honest, and gives me attention all the time. Not everyday a guy like you come around. So, sometimes you have to hide certain stuff. I had sex with other guys before you."
I told her that I still would of accepted her regardless if she was a virgin or not. I don't give fukk about that. Just the simple fact that she lied to me and keep lying to me for over 3 years that she WAS a virgin is what hurt me. Whenever we talked about sex, I would tell her we should go raw one night, because it's something special I only wanna do with someone I'm with. But, she kept stressing to use a condom to not have kids if we not ready for that. This was when she told me she might not be able to have kids anyway. So, everything didn't click till now. I had years of signs, and I didn't even notice breh. I feel so stupid now.
what's wrong with whole wheat?
but i got whole wheat at home.
