I think my depression and anxiety is more of a philosophical/psychological problem. I don't think cbt is helpful for me at all. Cbt is basically just getting into a routine and doing things that you enjoy again. I don't have any problems like that. I'm hiding in plain sight so you couldn't tell I was depressed or anxious. I was still able to box, go out with friends whenever I wanted, etc.
It's more of an internal struggle in me where it's two opposing forces conflicting and creating struggle. Like I've been having dreams of fighting for like 6 years now. Every night there's some sort of combat in my dreams. I read that this means there is an internal conflict in you.
I might stop this cbt tbh it's just redundant at this point I have no problems doing the things they are getting me to do.
I'm reading a bit of c jung atm and his works are speaking to me a lot more than cbt.