I journeyed over to JBO, oh boy, that place is f*cking dangerous 




i just dont want to see the world celebrating and having the time of the minute while Im NOT. That hurts but thats nothing new. Just going to turn off the tv and sleep. Let me sleep and be alone in my misery. I took some days off from my job too. 

ive been "bed rotting" almost most of my life.
again, thats something im VERY familiar with. I had a burnout/meltdown after i got home from my job today so i took my ass right to bed. Couldnt fall asleep though. My sad autistic life.
i will in a few after sipping more passion flower/chamomile tea.
woke up and was surprised like thats it? But the pain is slowly starting to show itself. Cant drink, cant vape, about to be on that liquid diet. Never had surgery before or been put to sleep.