Ever since my vacation, been feeling a bit emotional because that was the feeling that Ive been waiting for a VERY long time.

just being worry free, relaxed, liberated and one with nature and the universe. No anxiety. I just was in a good space mentally where I wasnt letting anybody get under my skin. That was the ME TIME that I needed and still do. I realize that Im good when im alone by myself as I enjoy my own company but I have to learn how to share and be open to sharing that peace with other people. I dont know how to and am not comfortable. Most of my trip was me being alone with some family here, a friend here, and acquaintance there but i had enough space and time for myself.

Im an adventurer that would like to have someone else who is about as daring, adventurous, restless and wants to see and experience as much.
I feel like the NYC area burns people out eventually. I really dont have that energy to be ready to fight everybody or look for smoke. Ive been doing some sort of fighting someone or a bunch of people most of my life or around that energy and that shyt is tiring. However, im just chilling out and realizing that that hyper energy isn't good.