There's Nothing Wrong with Suicide

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I'm going to apologize for using "I" so much in advance.

I disagree with the premise that I'm needed. Because I hate everything about myself and legit wish I was ever born. I offer nothing to society even though I have a good job. Felt that way since teen years.

But I really love my family. And they really love me. Especially my mom. I can't fathom seeing her at my funeral because she really, really loves me. So I'm in this weird space where I don't want to live but I can't pull the trigger because I don't want to put the family through that. And I feel that there's something off about that.
why do you hate yourself?
 

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I don't think its necessarily wrong but I will always believe every problem life sends you has a way out.

I've known a few people to kill themselves, some similar ones that stand out:

•Lil Werk was a small coke dealer, started getting paranoid about regular street shyt, and laid himself down on his couch and shot himself, dead at 19:

Alexander Livingston Obituary (2009) - Fayetteville, NC - Fayetteville Observer Alexander Livingston Obituary (2009) - Fayetteville, NC - Fayetteville Observer

•AI was involved in multiple simultaneous gang wars, and felt betrayed by some guys who he felt shoulda had his back. He was vocalizing his dismay around that for awhile pre-death; eventually just went behind someone's shed in their backyard, and tore his face off with a shotgun, dead at 19. Can't find his obit but he died in 2010, his click rode really hard for him after death though for years, like he was murdered;

•Sean used to carry himself like he was a g and I remember telling dude to be careful about the energy he was inviting, because I knew he wasn't with that action to his core. He ends up getting into it with someone at a bowling alley one night, shoots the dude, then goes on the run.

While on the run he starts getting paranoid, I believe it was his forst amd only time shooting someone. Dude was shook; eventually went to a friend's house party, everybody says he was acting normal. End of the night everybody leaving, he asks to stay the night, they tell him yes. While tge hosts cleaning the kitchen, he'd laid himself down on theor couch and shot himself, dead at 24:

Mr. Shawn Tyree Elliott Obituary - Visitation & Funeral Information Mr. Shawn Tyree Elliott - View Obituary & Service Information

He left behind a daughter he loved too.

Anyway I knew of others but those three stand out and I'll remember how much life these guys took from themselves....it really aint the way.
 

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I'm going to apologize for using "I" so much in advance.

I disagree with the premise that I'm needed. Because I hate everything about myself and legit wish I was ever born. I offer nothing to society even though I have a good job. Felt that way since teen years.

But I really love my family. And they really love me. Especially my mom. I can't fathom seeing her at my funeral because she really, really loves me. So I'm in this weird space where I don't want to live but I can't pull the trigger because I don't want to put the family through that. And I feel that there's something off about that.
What’s ya job? How much money you make?
 

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Do you think taking a trip to Nigeria and visiting one of their orphanages would change you…or even moving to Africa?
 

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This just pissed me all the fukk off. So cause ya life shytty you wanna kill me with you????
Yup! I told my wife - nıggas like that - if they survive, should get locked up and graphically raped.

This way - they can really think about the repercussions of their actions.

If I survive - i will be someone's bıtch like @Roger king. Maybe I shouldn't do this. 🤔

That's how Masika's husband - Jamar Champ from love and hip hop died. Goofy nıggas doing goofy shít out here.
 

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What’s ya job? How much money you make?
HR Business Partner. Good money. Not 6 figures but good money.
why do you hate yourself?
Because I don't like anything about myself and there is nothing that can be done to change that. I'm psychologically broken but seeing a therapist wouldn't actually accomplish anything.
 

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HR Business Partner. Good money. Not 6 figures but good money.

Because I don't like anything about myself and there's nothing that can be done to change it. I'm psychologically broken and seeing a therapist wouldn't actually accomplish anything.
Hmm...

I'm just as fụcked up as you. What's the root cause?
 

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Coulda worded this better, sometimes I think there a existence better than this... there I go thinkin' again.
I can wait for whatever poppin' wherever we go when we die.

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what's wrong with it is the tragedy that causes it.

Rarely does it exist in a vacuum where someone just does it for no reason. Look at what you wrote in the thread explaining why....tragic.
How can any man want to kill himself knowing you exist in the wild, waiting to be loved up on and worshipped and cherished...every inch of that florescent Orange Raw Sienna Skin........and the fact a man can slide his penis in you and embrace on the 2nd act display of love is what makes life worth living for: To be able seek you out and earn your mind, body and passion.
 
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How can any man want to kill himself knowing you exist in the wild, waiting to be loved up on and worshipped and cherished...every inch of that florescent Orange Raw Sienna Skin........and the fact a man can slide his penis in you and embrace on the 2nd act display of love is what makes life worth living for: To be able seek you out and earn your mind, body and passion.

I tried to rep you. Realest ish you ever wrote.
 

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HR Business Partner. Good money. Not 6 figures but good money.

Because I don't like anything about myself and there is nothing that can be done to change that. I'm psychologically broken but seeing a therapist wouldn't actually accomplish anything.
Find a psychiatrist if you think a normal therapist will not be helpful. Maybe you have a chemical imbalance that he can fix with medical science.
 
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