I totally understand. I was told the same thing about explaining yourself. My elders taught me, easier to have these talks in person.
When I tried to tell my family I don't fear Death because she comes for all of us no matter what, they called me suicidal. Told them I don't care about immortality & wanted to know where I go when I die I was called unstable.
Keep searching yourself. I've been called many things but I was always right. We all die, we just have things we can do before it happens. You don't have to listen to other people.
dude been dead less than 24 hours and you someone who he was admittedly "a rude a$$hole" to has the details? 
Cacs aren’t the only ones who hunt. A lot of black people hunt bro. I’ve been hunting dozens of times even though it ain’t really my thing. My pop leases land every year to hunt dove and deer. I go sometimes just to spend quality time with my old man.
