I'm not insincere breh.
For the longest period when people confronted me about it I would patiently apologise and explain my stance, not to defend myself, but to show them why I did what I did. The fact is there's no justifying my action. Whether in retaliation or not I should have showed racial sensitivity and maturity and not resorted to what I said anyway.
But I'm human. I made a mistake. We've all done it. And I know it's hard to brush off the racist card after that but truth is I'm not racist. I just didn't think about the consequences and implications of my actions and played off a racial stereotype nonchalantly. I'm a Muslim as you pointed out so I know the importance of respecting people of all colours, backgrounds and traditions.
I can't explain why I did what I did. It was spur of the moment in response to what was said to me.
My point is why keep referencing it NOW when I have shown no other evidences of racism or the like and it has nothing to do with the discussion at hand?
But I really do appreciate your insight and your assessment. I respect you took the time to write that and you are right in much of what you said.
That's all you got to say really, you apologise and you made a mistake. On the board we're on people are going to bring it up, as soon as you made that error you then created consequences for that. What defines you now is how you react when it's brought up, in my opinion, got to apologise and be humble, you have to accept comebacks from that cause it was from your own actions. By some of your language in the responses it makes people question the sincerity of it. If you ARE sincere then also have to show that through your words and actions and make amends not dig a deeper hole.
You are a human, and humans of course make mistakes. We've not all racially insulted people though, I know for myself I haven't on or offline, to any race based off something strictly racial regardless of any trolling or provocation, what I'm saying is it shouldn't be in someone's heart to reveal something like that in moments of anger or frustration. There's really no need, whoever was trolling you, it wasn't cause of their race, it was cause of them, by saying what you did you took the bait and damaged yourself also.
I can't get into a deep analysis of your character here as I don't know you like that, and I don't really follow posters personally like that here. But what's judged on here is what we type etc, it's the words cause most people don't know eachother like that, so it's understandable for somebody to have that opinion based on what you said. My opinion on whether you're racist or not is I don't know, I haven't followed like that, but may be some prejudice there from your comments, if so that's something you should delve into off here and try to deal with personally if it's in your heart to alter that.
Because like you said, in true Islam that's something not acceptable at all and you strip away completely, you deal with a person as a human being nothing else. It's always important to be careful of your words so you express what is in your heart and not let anger, frustration or indiscipline make you act in a way that doesn't show you in the light that you deem is an accurate representation of your character. The key for atonement if that is what you want is humbleness and sincerity, taking responsibility and showing remorse without any negative rebuttals for something you caused.
No-one I believe is saying you are Hitler esq, but the thing is those racial insults are very hurtful, you must understand how that makes people feel, somebody they see on a Hip Hop board, who's supposed to be a part of the culture then using a racial term to insult the founders and huge contributors of the same culture we are discussing here and who's namesake your screename is. I was personally disappointed and bewildered with your comments, there was some hypocrisy within those comments that was distasteful. However like I said, the key to atonement (with some, you won't get it with everyone) is sincerity, you say you made a mistake and are sorry, then you got to show that, don't let weak emotions get the best of you and fix what made you even say that in the first place.
Yes, you made a mistake, some will mention it as a stick to beat you with, some will be genuinely offended by what you said, some will use it against you in any argument to try and dismiss and devalue you, you HAVE to accept all of that because it's something you've already done now and created, all you can do is apologise and better yourself, bashing people for mentioning it is very counterproductive, the truth is the root of it is you doing it in the first place. People talk shyt on here all the time, make up various lies, but if there's no proof or validation it's just nonsense, unfortunately with you you did say something out of line and unacceptable. You should now atone and move on, post about music. Humbleness is they key word, you have to be humble if you are truly remorseful.
Again, I'm not trying to argue with anybody or bash anybody really, but I was just reading some of that back and forth and there seemed to be a disconnect on your part so just posted to bring a bit of understanding and my perspective. I've dropped some knowledge in this post, hopefully you have the intelligence to heed and act upon what I said if you are sincere, and be humble and genuine.
