GreenGhxst
Veteran
Count my blessings
Nutrition and sleep go a long way, nglAnd thats supposed to stop the torturing in dreams?

You’re literally haunted in your dreams?And before you respond unless you've had dreams that feel 100% where you being tortured by demons for hours to the same Jewish song for hours your pain is NOT the same respectfully. I
Just put a squirt of that liquid water enhancer in my water and when I went to shake it up the cap wasn't tight on it enough so some flew out so i just pour the whole thing on my rug
From experience, forgive yourself and take whatever time you need to figure out why you're actually mad. And if that doesn't work, do it again. You might have a problem that simply can't be solved. I had a whole suicide plan that I just barely dodged executing because I can't go out that way so I hear you.
Congrats on the first bornAlso from experience, I agree with this.
Forgiveness and finding a way to love yourself. fukk how corny it sounds. Loving yourself and how you move and think is paramount.
I've hit rock bottom at least 3 times (each time I thought I hit rock bottom, life said nah folk, it can get worse... lemme show you) , dealt with the kind of grief, circumstances, mistakes and loss that people don't even want to hear about, because it brings their mood down. So what helps, finding yourself and loving what you find. Realizing you aren't that bad or too late for just about anything. I've mentioned before here, defeating the man in the mirror is the first step to freedom and happiness. Perspective can change the shyttiest of circumstances, but it takes discipline and you absolutely can learn that kind of discipline.
I'm 36, my first born came last month. I'm getting married next month. My career is trending up. But I had to go through MAJOR strife and many days of suicidal ideation to get here. Don't be afraid of what someone may say or think... wholly irrelevant. Trying to be a part of the rat race that is American society? Don't. Find your own lane and your own peace.
I wish you the best and if you need a more personal outlet, message me. I always offer that when I see threads like this.
I say all this and intentionally show vulnerabilty to strangers to prove a point. YOU matter, not the opinions of others. Remember that and find solace in it.
If god is love which is there all this hate in the air huh?
willhelp.me
What I mean is that in your expanded state your awareness processes at a rate of twenty million bits per second. Contrast that to the 40 bits you’re aware you’re aware of and you’ll bump head first into the filtering and why its in your best interests to control what you can to influence what you can’t because only then can you say you’re playing your part. Ever noticed when your friend gets a new car you see it everywhere whereas before the same type and model was invisible? Thats the same process in full effect
willhelp.me
The only friend and enemy that ever exists is the one inside your head because unless you tame this beast he will make you his bish and run your existence from now till the end and even then beyond because you’ll be conditioned by the words which come from you at your worst, influenced as you were by all the hurt and the taunts, the jeers and scorns which the world heaps on all who are born into this beleaguered Game of Souls, with its heart is long cold and it wants the same for your Soul. To eradicate the glow so it can sell you a show in which the story of your life is written with anothers pen. Tell me that doesn’t sound like two steps from hell? Then take a look at your life and tell me if there’s a difference?
willhelp.me
Sounds like you need to hit the gym, get some coochie and strive to become 2pac in a bidness suit.