I was in the car driving home and the jay electronica song girlfriend came on, and hit me, I started thinking about love. My opinion on the subject is very bleak. I don't think it exist, and that humans just get what they need from each other and move on to the next. I always thought love was an mental illness, where 2 ppl are really just infatuated with each other and they have delusions of love, because of the indoctrination the system brainwash us with as children.
But I started to think, pondering what it would be like to truly be in love with a woman. Not lust or anything sexually or superficial, but a female best friend, that can give you companionship. Somebody that make you happy from their presence. That support your dreams and never mock your vision and ideas.
I started to imagine travelling the world with somebody that I love, going to Japan, visiting the temples and shrines. Watching the cherry blossom under the crescent moonlight, walking the sands of the Maldives holding hands, visiting museums, having all night conversations about how society suck and how its an illusion. And Both of us truly want to be with each other. No manipulation or games, no agenda, nobody trying to take...just 2 people that truly enjoy each other company.
I always wanted children too, A big family, like more then 5, because I'am the only child and never had no brothers or sisters to play with, just me alone with my thoughts. I think dudes with a happy home, wife and kids may be the truly blessed men on earth. Money cant buy that.
I've never experienced love or even liking a female past sexual lust. I don't know, but sometimes I get lonely and wish I had somebody that loved me, tuck me in at night and kiss me on the forehead. But i cant even see that happening, even if I did settle down, It would probably be because I feel obligated at some point
For all the people that ever experienced, love, what is it like?