What is the absolute worst/depressing year you've had?
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Kenny West
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2013 and 2011
2014 was just diet 2013 but I paid my dues
2014 was just diet 2013 but I paid my dues
2013 was low man....first time i cried as an adult. even thought about offing myself....came close and everything....i hit rock bottom...i was so low, and so lost, i didnt know what the do...first time i didnt have the answers...i was confused....i picked up the pieces and recuilt myself, now im better then ever and im on a good tract....adversity build character
The past 2 years have been real bad was so depressed I suffered from derealization so bad I felt like everyday I was fighting for my sanity, shid I was so oblivious to everything the past 2 years 
but here I am in 2015 still kicking
but here I am in 2015 still kicking
Brandsdale
Big Yella
School?
Myrical Lyfe
In the Gutter, of the Tunnel
This past year was the worst for meh. But it's not like any of them were worthy.
2013
DuncanWebayama
webayama 7'5" hall of fame loc
this one so far, but it's been a build up. Don't get to see light or fresh air for 1-2 months at a time, didn't bother me but this year it's going to be longer.
broke up with fiance because we had different mindstates after going through different experiences in a couple of months (no infidelity)
lost 2 good friends who were good smart people and couldn't handle the street life
my best friend lost his daughter and was getting kicked out his apartment, I gave 3 thousand dollars for his lil girl to get a proper burial and for him to stay in his place...next thing i know he is flashing my money on instagram...
every girl I met and kicked off with I distanced myself knowing I was going to be gone.
That was last year, this year, I basically drank every night, haven't cut my hair since the month started and haven't worked out at all, lost all my gains, moms just had a big surgery, little brother struggling terribly in college life. Hopefully things look up because now =(
broke up with fiance because we had different mindstates after going through different experiences in a couple of months (no infidelity)
lost 2 good friends who were good smart people and couldn't handle the street life
my best friend lost his daughter and was getting kicked out his apartment, I gave 3 thousand dollars for his lil girl to get a proper burial and for him to stay in his place...next thing i know he is flashing my money on instagram...
every girl I met and kicked off with I distanced myself knowing I was going to be gone.
That was last year, this year, I basically drank every night, haven't cut my hair since the month started and haven't worked out at all, lost all my gains, moms just had a big surgery, little brother struggling terribly in college life. Hopefully things look up because now =(
2013
my dad had just had a stroke a few months earlier, he used to be a singer and couldn't do that anymore so he got real depressed and tried to commit that in February.
Had to move him up close to me so I could take care of him, he only ever got paid under the table though and didn't pay taxes so I could only get a few $$ a month for him from the government. Found a cheap one bedroom apartment around the corner from me and gave him as much money as I could to make him comfortable. Went over after work everyday and made him supper, brought him cigarettes, weed, watched movies with him etc. Had von nurses coming through during the day.
Around this time found out my stepfather had pancreatic cancer and only had about 6 months unless an operation went well (it didn't) Him and moms were superintendents of their apt. building after being bankrupt (he was in real estate before) so that was how they paid rent. He got sick real fast and couldn't take care of the building anymore (cleaning entrances, hallways, laundry rooms, shovelling, salting etc.) so I started splitting time between going there to take care of all that for them to keep their place and going to dad's. (plus I was working 12 hour shifts at my regular job)
Around april my daughters (7) mother locked herself in a hotel room and swallowed a bottle of pills, she called her mother to say bye and somehow she knew where she was and the ambulance got there in time. She was in the mental ward for awhile but was eventually discharged. Ended up back there 3 more times that year.
We had a bad winter starting early that year so sometimes I was working 12 hour backshifts, going to moms to shovel/salt all day (bunch of snowstorms) then going back to work the next night without sleeping. Plus I would have my daughter cause her moms was fukking up and I was still making time for short visits with my dad everyday I could.
October 27th I brought my dad a pack of smokes and found him dead on the floor beside his bed facedown in a pool of blood. Thought he did it himself (and felt like I failed him) but found out later it was massive heart failure.
My stepdad stayed at home throughout cause he didn't want to live in a hospital but eventually I had to move there because I just needed to be there all the time to take care of the building and my moms who was taking care of him. Worse because my kid was with me so much she seen him getting sicker all the time and my mom would sometimes have to watch her while I worked.
We do Christmas morning on boxing day because she comes over after her mother and her open presents at home Christmas morning.
My stepdad died while we were opening presents
fukk 2013
took care of moms all 2014, was really fukked up in my head and drinking all the time for the first 6 months but I'm getting over it all now (still drinking a lot but fukk it)
my daughter's mother is doing much better now, took some trial and error with meds but she's leveled out it seems
moms is doing much better and moving out in the next month or so, finally have my own place again
2015 is mine
felt good to write all that down
my dad had just had a stroke a few months earlier, he used to be a singer and couldn't do that anymore so he got real depressed and tried to commit that in February.
Had to move him up close to me so I could take care of him, he only ever got paid under the table though and didn't pay taxes so I could only get a few $$ a month for him from the government. Found a cheap one bedroom apartment around the corner from me and gave him as much money as I could to make him comfortable. Went over after work everyday and made him supper, brought him cigarettes, weed, watched movies with him etc. Had von nurses coming through during the day.
Around this time found out my stepfather had pancreatic cancer and only had about 6 months unless an operation went well (it didn't) Him and moms were superintendents of their apt. building after being bankrupt (he was in real estate before) so that was how they paid rent. He got sick real fast and couldn't take care of the building anymore (cleaning entrances, hallways, laundry rooms, shovelling, salting etc.) so I started splitting time between going there to take care of all that for them to keep their place and going to dad's. (plus I was working 12 hour shifts at my regular job)
Around april my daughters (7) mother locked herself in a hotel room and swallowed a bottle of pills, she called her mother to say bye and somehow she knew where she was and the ambulance got there in time. She was in the mental ward for awhile but was eventually discharged. Ended up back there 3 more times that year.
We had a bad winter starting early that year so sometimes I was working 12 hour backshifts, going to moms to shovel/salt all day (bunch of snowstorms) then going back to work the next night without sleeping. Plus I would have my daughter cause her moms was fukking up and I was still making time for short visits with my dad everyday I could.
October 27th I brought my dad a pack of smokes and found him dead on the floor beside his bed facedown in a pool of blood. Thought he did it himself (and felt like I failed him) but found out later it was massive heart failure.
My stepdad stayed at home throughout cause he didn't want to live in a hospital but eventually I had to move there because I just needed to be there all the time to take care of the building and my moms who was taking care of him. Worse because my kid was with me so much she seen him getting sicker all the time and my mom would sometimes have to watch her while I worked.
We do Christmas morning on boxing day because she comes over after her mother and her open presents at home Christmas morning.
My stepdad died while we were opening presents
fukk 2013
took care of moms all 2014, was really fukked up in my head and drinking all the time for the first 6 months but I'm getting over it all now (still drinking a lot but fukk it)
my daughter's mother is doing much better now, took some trial and error with meds but she's leveled out it seems
moms is doing much better and moving out in the next month or so, finally have my own place again
2015 is mine
felt good to write all that down
DaRealness
I think very deeply
2006 was the absolute worst year of my life.
Pool_Shark
Can’t move with me in this digital space
I don't think I've had a worst year, thank god, a lot of ups and downs . I'm 24 so I'll have one eventually. 2015 will be my best year for sure.
2014, with 2011 coming close
1999-nephew died hrs after bein born
2005-cousin got killed outside the club. She hardly ever went out, but her friend convinced her she needed to go out at least once. Some coward ass nikka had beef wit some dude, pulled out his gun, shot in a large crowd, everybody started runnin back into the club, my cousin got shot in the back of the head. Still makes me upset 10 yrs later
2005-cousin got killed outside the club. She hardly ever went out, but her friend convinced her she needed to go out at least once. Some coward ass nikka had beef wit some dude, pulled out his gun, shot in a large crowd, everybody started runnin back into the club, my cousin got shot in the back of the head. Still makes me upset 10 yrs later
Brandsdale
Big Yella
In Ohio? Real sorry to hear that breh. Im fortunate enough to be from the suburbs and Toronto "thugs" aint shyt compared to the savages I've seen and heard about in the U.S.
It happened in Illinois, but actually happened when I was back in Ohio. I was just in Illinois the prior week.
I hear Toronto is nice. I know nikkaz get it in there, but don't let miserable U.S. nikkaz clown you because you live in a nice area. These nikkaz here think it's fun dukin bullets lol
