SnowflakesByTheOZ
Sorry, that's another B
I got a awkward ass head shape
:guccard:My dikk.
Circumcised at 16 and lost atleast 3 inches length and 2 girth.
shyts depressing. Went from fat thick dikk to just averge
My dikk.
Circumcised at 16 and lost atleast 3 inches length and 2 girth.
shyts depressing. Went from fat thick dikk to just averge
ouch
but those women probably learned a good lesson during their time in your presence. outside of physical abuse anything else can be chalked up as a life lesson on a woman’s part when it comes to being done nawf by a guy.I grew up not really knowing my biological mother, so it made me cold toward women for a long time. It took me having daughters in my 30’s to realize how much of an a$$hole I used to be. Now that I’m 40, I feel like I wasted a lot of my life on treating women like shyt or using them. I don’t like that about myself.
My personality and intelligence. Growing up I was always told I was pretty. I got used to just falling back on my looks to get things—from jobs, ego boosts, relationships, money, etc. then one day I realized, that every time I met someone knew I never had anything to say, that was of value. I couldn’t really contribute in conversations, I had nothing to add. There was nothing about me that made me unique—or that I could express to anyone. If that makes sense. Plus I have ADD, and had processing issues growing up, so it’s a struggle to keep up sometimes when I’m learning something new, or trying to understand something complex. So I’m sometimes just won’t even try to contribute because I don’t want people to know I don’t understand.
Social awkwardness. I’m socially awkward. I know what to say to people, and I’m actually good with people, but I dont have a filter, and I say a lot of things without thinking. And do a little of stupid stuff, like getting lost when I shouldn’t, or not being able to find my car when I’ve parked it somewhere. Or not being able to cut things out lol, without messing it up(sucky fine motor skills).
I have mental health issues, a coldness I can’t explain. So I don’t react right to situations and people. I often wonder, if I ever truly loved anyone, if I’m capable of it. It makes me worried becsuse I’ve used and manipulated so many people that loved me, and I don’t even know if I love them back. If I am capable of it. I wonder why I don’t feel
things the way others do...

. Had like 3-4 chances to lose it, but either said the wrong thing, the girl bytched out or I waited too long. Two of my co-workers would crack jokes even though, they really had no room to clown because one is in an unhappy marriage and the other is a single mom of 33 with ,lord forgive me, two autistic kids. My apologies for the mini-rant...Got damn
- I wish my dikk was half an inch bigger. I'm currently sitting at around 6 inches and while it looks fine to me, idk what a woman would think if she saw it.
- I'm a 20 year old virgin due to me being lazy as shyt and a loner who is unlucky with women
. Had like 3-4 chances to lose it, but either said the wrong thing, the girl bytched out or I waited too long. Two of my co-workers would crack jokes even though, they really had no room to clown because one is in an unhappy marriage and the other is a single mom of 33 with ,lord forgive me, two autistic kids. My apologies for the mini-rant...
- I still am in my rebellious phase. This might just be who I am as a person...
- I stutter which annoys the fukk out of me. I pause a lot and it tends to drag out conversations. Talking to women alleviates this for some reason.
- I have commitment issues. I never stick around long enough to see if I'm good at something out of fear of someone coming along who's naturally better than myself.
- People always have such high hopes for me. I'm always told "you're so smart", "You're going to be great", "We need someone like you" even though I...just don't see it. People would always have the utmost faith in me even when I had lost all faith in myself. Even though I made it out of my town and am probably in the top 20th percentile of black men from my city, I don't feel like I can ever reach the standards that people set for me. My biggest fear in life is being 60 years old in a rocking chair asking myself did I live up to everyone's expectations. People say that they see me being successful, but to me, making a career in the military doesn't seem THAT successful when I feel like people think I can make a difference in this world. My English teacher might have bumped up my grade on my English final exam in order for me to pass and while she saw me in uniform and told me how proud she was that I had "made it", I feel I haven't done enough. The fact that she risked her career in order to pass me has always stuck with me. I don't want this to be the apex of my accomplishments, man...

