What´s Your Biggest Regret?

[mbewane]

Do you still wish to do any of these things??

Ideally, yeah, but tbh I don't feel I have the self-confidence required to do it. I'm 35 so I don't really think I'm at a period where I can really get into music or basketball very seriously, can't be a struggling producer or whatever at near 40. Central Africa is complicated for personnal reasons (some of which I can't really share here), most of the people I know there have left anyway, plus we've had more than a decade of political turmoil (with a damn-near civil war the past 2 years), so that's that. Sango is not really a language one can learn by studying books or looking for a class abroad, it's not at the level of swahili, wolof or lingala for example. Plus some things I believe you build when you're young, hell some "real" central africans go back and have a hard time adapting. Same with NY and Lisbon, I have the feeling that if I go now it would be kind of me trying to "catch up" with lost time, which is also living in the past. Even if it goes well I'll always be like "shyt, I wasted so much time". And if it doesn't work, it's back to the drawing table. The thing is also that I don't really have any "base", anywhere I really fell "at home", so it's kind of hard to move knowing that I don't really have a place I can easily come back too.

All in all I guess I need like new dreams but tbh I'm kind of jaded now, so I guess I don't really believe in change or have the energy to pursue it. I've changed my life a couple times already, kind of jaded now

 

[CinnamonTequila]

Ideally, yeah, but tbh I don't feel I have the self-confidence required to do it. I'm 35 so I don't really think I'm at a period where I can really get into music or basketball very seriously, can't be a struggling producer or whatever at near 40. Central Africa is complicated for personnal reasons (some of which I can't really share here), most of the people I know there have left anyway, plus we've had more than a decade of political turmoil (with a damn-near civil war the past 2 years), so that's that. Sango is not really a language one can learn by studying books or looking for a class abroad, it's not at the level of swahili, wolof or lingala for example. Plus some things I believe you build when you're young, hell some "real" central africans go back and have a hard time adapting. Same with NY and Lisbon, I have the feeling that if I go now it would be kind of me trying to "catch up" with lost time, which is also living in the past. Even if it goes well I'll always be like "shyt, I wasted so much time". And if it doesn't work, it's back to the drawing table. The thing is also that I don't really have any "base", anywhere I really fell "at home", so it's kind of hard to move knowing that I don't really have a place I can easily come back too.

All in all I guess I need like new dreams but tbh I'm kind of jaded now, so I guess I don't really believe in change or have the energy to pursue it. I've changed my life a couple times already, kind of jaded now

I can dig it... In that case, I say to give 100% on the things that you are doing now... You are 35 now, try not to be 50 and looking back thinking about the things that you wish you had done when you were 35... Best of lucks breh!

 

[BrehWyatt]

Not playing sports in high school is one, but I guess the main one is generally not maximizing my time in school/college. I mostly hated everything about it and was there for one reason: get these grades and go home. I should have used that time to come out of my shell socially/with the opposite sex (it carried over into the first couple years of undergrad at college) and lay the groundwork for habits and standards I'd have now. I did a good bit in school, but I could have done more and set myself up a bit nicer.

I also regret not getting a math tutor back when I was at Alabama A&M. Maybe doing that would have helped me keep my full-ride scholarship. Granted, I am MORE than happy with where I graduated from, but this student loan debt is not a game

 

[thatdude954]

Turning down girls because of my friends opinions
Not maintaining those friendships
Not smashing chicks that were throwing it at me
Not taking school srs
Not playing HS ball. Might try to be a College walk-on but im so outta shape and I hear those guys are tackling dummies.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

1. My aunt was dying of lung cancer. We live in the same city. I could skate to her house. My mom told me to go see her ASAP. I blew her off to make money. I wasn't busy. She died within hours of my mom calling me. I would have been the last person she saw before she died and she wouldn't have died alone.


2. My big brother bullied me all of my life. I grew up avoiding him. I was never home. I never tried to develop a relationship with him because he was so mean to me. Recently he was diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, and admitted to being sexually abused as a child. His therapists told me he talks about how much he admires me.

3. The love of my life told me she was pregnant. She told me she'd only have kids for me because I want kids. When she told me she was pregnant. I didn't speak, walked out of the room, and started drinking. I'm pretty sure I broke her heart in that moment. I told her I'd never hurt her. She miscarried and developed a drinking problem after that. We're not together anymore. I hated her for a year. I now see everything I did wrong. Wow! I fukked that up. And I'll never have a love like that again.

 

[ThaBronxBully]

Yeah I know... Being honest I didn´t write my Biggest regret... I wrote the second or third..
But I think that even though you don´t share it with us if I was able to at least make you think about it and maybe help you start taking action on it or if it´s something that you can´t fix maybe learn from it and use that learning now.

Come Up Off Them Regrets

 

[CinnamonTequila]

1. My aunt was dying of lung cancer. We live in the same city. I could skate to her house. My mom told me to go see her ASAP. I blew her off to make money. I wasn't busy. She died within hours of my mom calling me. I would have been the last person she saw before she died and she wouldn't have died alone.


2. My big brother bullied me all of my life. I grew up avoiding him. I was never home. I never tried to develop a relationship with him because he was so mean to me. Recently he was diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, and admitted to being sexually abused as a child. His therapists told me he talks about how much he admires me.

3. The love of my life told me she was pregnant. She told me she'd only have kids for me because I want kids. When she told me I didn't speak, walked out of the room, and started drinking. I'm pretty sure I broke her heart in that moment. I told her I'd never hurt her. She miscarried and developed a drinking problem after that. We're not together anymore. I hated her for a year. I now see everything I did wrong. Wow! I fukked that up. And I'll never have a love like that again.

Man! You just made me feel bad about crying over my silly school situation...
I hope things get better...

 

[CinnamonTequila]

Come Up Off Them Regrets

What??

 

[Silkk]

Yeah I know... Being honest I didn´t write my Biggest regret... I wrote the second or third..
.

How you gonna make the thread & then hold back

 

[Koapa]

1. Not going into engineering.
2. Not taking college as serious as I should've.
3. Not pledging in college.

 

[CinnamonTequila]

How you gonna make the thread & then hold back

Silkk, If you take a look at the OP it says: I´ll start with ONE of mine!! I have more than one... I wrote the one I am struggling with the most right now...
My biggest one is something that can´t be fixed anymore...

 

[Silkk]

Silkk, If you take a look at the OP it says: I´ll start with ONE of mine!! I have more than one... I wrote the one I am struggling with the most right now...
My biggest one is something that can´t be fixed anymore...

Post that shyt or catch this train

 

[CinnamonTequila]

Post that shyt or catch this train

Ok,
My mom died when I was 7 in a car accident, I was in the car with her, she and my stepdad were taking me to a summer camp and I was going to spend the week there and I didn´t want to. The last thing I told my mom before she died was ¨I hate you¨... Then the car went down a cliff...
I know she knew I was just saying that cause I was 7 and I was upset, but I still think about it sometimes...

 

[Silkk]

Ok,
My mom died when I was 7 in a car accident, I was in the car with her, she and my stepdad were taking me to a summer camp and I was going to spend the week there and I didn´t want to. The last thing I told my mom before she died was ¨I hate you¨... Then the car went down a cliff...
I know she knew I was just saying that cause I was 7 and I was upset, but I still think about it sometimes...

Damn Breh. I can't even imagine

 

[Dominicansbelit]

be a flamboyant homosexual brehs.

you ugly