When and how did you lose your innocence?

[TheDarkskinnedDrake]

Seeing my brother get sent to prison at 15

 

[LDThaGod]

When I realized my father only came to see me to see if he still can smash my mom and when he realized that was a lost cause he stop giving a fukk about me....and when I did go with him to spend the weekend I’ll spend one night at his house with his wife and my 2 lil sisters and the next night I’ll be over his side piece house spending the night with her and her kids....basically I knew at a early age with disappointment and resentment was...I knew then that folks can truly live a double life

 

[Dafunkdoc_Unlimited]

Found a dead body under the stairs at the age of 5. Dude threw up all over himself and had a needle sticking out of his arm. Didn't know he was dead until 5-6 hours later after I told my mom 'Mr. Jeffries is under the stairs and ain't moving.' She called the police and one patrol car showed up with an ambulance. Cops asked me a couple questions that didn't make any sense and left.

The 'hood is/was NOT a place where 'innocence' can flourish.​

 

[semicko82]

6 years old my mom dated some dude who wasn't right. One day she locked him out and we had to call the cops - dude was banging on all the windows and shyt and we're inside scared AF that he might have a gun.

11 years old. Old lady lost her job and one day they came and repossessed half our furniture. 6 months later we were nearly homeless, but my uncle held us down. I knew money was tight so I used to pretend I wasn't hungry. My bro didn't give a fukk, he just used to eat everything. fukked up thing is I'm younger. Things did a complete 180 just a few months later.

Staying in a rundown motel and then going off to a prestigious school (full scholarship)was such a bizarre experience.

inspiring. How did you rise out of the ashes

 

[semicko82]

Around the time I left religion and also realised family is just people related to you by blood, nothing more. People's actions are what you need to pay attention to, not titles.

I also realised around that time that no matter what people supposedly are to you, when they're ready, their own survival and self preservation is what will dictate their actions not blood relations or bible texts.

Basically I learned the hard way that the person in the mirror is the one who is truly there for you no matter what anyone says. People are full of shyt. They talk all that nice stuff about love and loyalty, but they will be the first ones to throw you under the bus with no fukks given when the opportunity arises, so fukk them. Look out for number one.

This!

 

[tater]

I guess a few things...
When my mom finally sat me down and told my why she doesn't let me spend the night at some family members houses.

My mom getting really sick when I was about 8ish, I would be home with her and watch her have seizures and have to call 911. I remember trying to open her mouth and hold her tongue so she wouldn't choke.

Having adult men try to talk to me and catcall me as a preteen.

 

[skeetsinternal]

Got mauled by a pack of German shepards while helping to herd cows in Jamaica.

I had p*ssy and was getting p*ssy at an early age. Got molested by female next door neighbor who baby sat me.

When we moved from yard to come to this God forsaken icebox called USA

 

[GreenGhxst]

Parents divorced, switched states and moved to the hood in baton rouge with mom and younger siblings. I was 10

I was the oldest and being in that environment from the school to my home life I knew shyt wasn't sweet anymore and I'd have to really be cutthroat/toughen up

Was such a shock to me how much different kids in the suburb were vs kids from the hood. and I thought I was hard

10-11 year old kids talking about p*ssy, drugs, guns, fighting and hoes.

I remember my first day of school in 6th grade, my luck is was one of the worst schools in the parish, jesus I was sheltered and had it good in the suburbs. Never heard so many kids say "bad words"

I really wanted to go back home thought nikkas was gone beat me up and steal my lunch money

nikka adapted tho

 

[HE_Pennypacker]

inspiring. How did you rise out of the ashes

Who knows, man? I guess it's a good thing my old lady's a teetotaller, because I'm sure that's the kind of thing that drives people into a spiral of alcoholism/drug abuse

We didn't have much, but we had each other and we still have each other look at breh's friend who was too dark for a black family and got sent back to an adoption agency - some people don't even have anyone shyt made me grateful and stop caring what people think - they don't know shyt about what I've been through for their opinion to even matter

 

[Fatboy_]

Around the age of 13 me and my cousin were laid up in the bed playing video games he put in a porno tape and taught me how to jack off and ive been beating my meat everyday for the rest of my life.

 

[86\*/98]

When I was 9 my mother let her friend and her son stay with us because she was about to be homeless. Around the second month of them being there while my mom was at work her friend took her son to his rec league baseball practice and when she came back she called me out from my room, pulled my pants down and gave me head. This behavior continued until they moved out a couple of months later.

A few years before that I found my uncles porn stash so that might technically be when I lost innocence. I’m not sure.

 

[ISHIDA]

At reading this thread, thankgod my childhood was pretty normal.

 

[Neo. The Only. The One.]

 

[ManxOfxThexYear]

Around the age of 13 me and my cousin were laid up in the bed playing video games he put in a porno tape and taught me how to jack off and ive been beating my meat everyday for the rest of my life.

 

[semicko82]

I'm surprised this thread isn't doing Michael Jackson numbers