I'm sorry to hear that, and I don't think a simple dap will suffice. I hope you find your way to being ok with your loss, breh. Sincerely.
Personally, the last time I broke down and cried was back in January. A friend of mine passed away in a car accident. The second I found out, I lost it. Went to pieces at 3 am, staring at an Instagram post, wishing it wasn't true, knowing it was, and not being able to control how I felt about it.
I still think about her just about everyday. Her birthday is in 11 days. I don't know what to do about it. I still "talk" to her and even though I don't believe in her religion, I hope she made her way to heaven. She was an angel.
The week after I found out she wasn't here, nothing was right. I cried over the simplest shyt, the most profound things. I don't think I've ever shed that many tears over the passing of another person, ever. Usually I'm removed enough from the situation where I can feel sympathy for the loss, attempt to give some comforting hugs, a few words of encouragement and heartfelt thoughts to the persons affected, and feel a sense of empathy. That week, I knew just how it felt to have someone you grew close to suddenly taken away from you in the physical sense.
I've lived a bit of a sheltered life. None of my close friends had ever passed away unexpectantly, or so suddenly. Even as I type this I feel a shudder overtaking me. There were so many strands of my existence tied into our friendship, and I was, and am reminded of them, just about everytime I brush into contact with them.
If my post affects you, I'm sorry. I don't mean to be a downer. It's just on my mind and I felt like sharing. I hope to see more jokes in this thread, because in moments like the one I'm experiencing, humor is the best medicine a human has available in our natural arsenal. Have a nice day y'all.