@CharlieManson Great post and made me think. I sent you a PM asking for advice regarding my life and you never responded. Here it is again:
I am 31 years old.
I am unemployed/broke and live with my 61 year old mother who financially takes care of me.
I have 60,000 dollars in student loan debt and a two year degree in Business Management. I have so much debt because I went to a 4 year university and screwed around and was put on academic suspension. I never got a degree from the 4 year university because of that.
I live in Americus, Georgia which is a small rural town.
I am addicted to porn and fapping and looking at beautiful women online. I fap 5 times a day and look at porn/porn gifs hours on end.
I am a virgin and never had a girlfriend. I have no friends/social life.
I don't have a car and don't have a driver's license but I do have a learner's license.
I have only worked one job my whole life; a work study job while in school.
I am 5'9'' and weigh 275 pounds.
im an extrovert when im watching porn jerking off
im an introvert when i bang prostitues in vegas
You as an introvert wanna take your inner world and impose it on the "real" world and extroverts wanna change the outer world to their will.
Naw you still wrong b.
The world is perfect for introverts now.
Never before could you work from home on a laptop, send emails instead of cold calling and going door to door to make money.
Post on an online forum and talk to other introverts
Get whatever you needed, delivered to your doorstep
If you aren't fulfilled, it's not because of the world.
It's because you don't understand yourself. Dont confuse depression/soul searching for introversion.

It sounds just like me and I think I'm going through this now. I do not want to talk about the latest memes or anything everyday. I do not understand how people can scroll Instagram or Facebook for hours I rather talk about something deep and meaningfulGreat read. I'm a introvert at heart (due to the things that motivate me) but I'm also pretty popular so I find myself in groups a lot of times but always feeling a sense of lack because I'm the type who wants to always talk about life's meaning and origins while others are caught up in more mundane things.
Got to tough it out and get passionate about something. Thanks.
So while you are unhappy as fukk being pushed along the extroversion path which starts at elementary school..you think something is wrong with you...you don't feel anything...you feel dead...you aren't motivated to do anything.
You overwhelm yourself with physical sensations...
You overeat or you overexercise
You masturbate a lot or you become promiscuous
You do drugs
You immerse yourself into fantasy worlds via videogames or television...where you can drift away into your inner world
Or even worse...
You end up like Van Gogh...locking yourself away and surrendering yourself to the craft of your choosing at the expense of everything else.