When u approach 30 as a man you start to get baby fever

[Sniper]

Man... I want a family but I'm not ready. I gotta get my mind and money right first. I was down at the cacfront aka the waterfront watching the beautiful sunset. It look like something that you would see on a post card. The sun light shining off of lake Erie was so angelic it gave me energy. The water was wavy bouncing around in the wind as boats sailed by. It was quite prepossessing. Some cacs started walking too close behind me and I get paranoid somebody might push me over the rail. So I swiftly made my exit.

I was listening to jayz-smile. Trying to learn how to smile again. Hov got a way of talking about the pain of the black man in a very profound and compelling way. Then the part where his mom talks about coming from the shadows and smiling is amazing. I'm trying to just smile but I gotta beast inside that thirst for something so greater, he wont stop knocking on the doors of my conscience. I cant kept him chained for long.

I always observe people with strollers and couples walking. I get envious and angry deep down but make myself feel better by justifying my loneliness by thinking atleast I'm not tied up and don't have the burden of looking after other people. But I want to be a family man and protect and provide deep inside.

Something about not having a kingdom makes a man feel incomplete. I thought about that while riding through Buffalo sadly deserted downtown streets. I was banging silk road by rick ross. Voume turned up to 40/45. Windows knocking from the bass. Had it on repeat feeling the lyrics. "I did it all for you, I did it all for you" I was flying down the freeway doing rebellious but not too dangerous 70 MPH. Swerving lanes, cutting slow drivers off, win blowing in my face. thinking to myself "was it worth it" "did I waste my life chasing something that don't exist?""is this "dream" really just like a real a dream that doesn't exist... that one day I'll wake up from as a failure"?

Who did I do it for? I think a man having a family actually would make the sacrifices sweeter because I know when the money comes in end. I'll be the same empty man just with money. I put myself in this position so I don't blame anybody for not having kids. Not being in a committed relationship do eat at me as I get older. I try to ignore but it comes back daily.

I thought I would have a big family of 8 when i was a kid but now I think about maintaining the little bit of joy that I have internally. Whatever tho....

Your first sentence says it all. When you're mentally ready it may happen, God may bring it to you when he feels it's time.

I cant front, Im 25 and definitely want kids soon before Im 30-32. Money wise Im good but I need to be more mentally prepared, and I've good girls I've dated but Im just not ready. Me and my serious ex lost a baby and it fukked me up.

I said it another thread I have a lot of thoughts of different convos/situations/activities Im gonna have with my children to make sure they dont have the mentality I had and they feel loved and they grow up in a good healthy environment versus how I did.

Sounds like your head's on straight, sorry to hear about the baby you two lost.

men have biological clocks too

really only undercover fakkits just want to fukk random chicks forever...alotta dudes dudes be on the DL

Fellas, don't listen to this person.

 

[Tombstone]

i had this vision of going to Disney world as a family all wearing matching polo outfits looking fly....everybody staring hating on the low

Yeah me and my children goin to every amusement park I aint never went to. I get visions like that all the time

Good thread G besides the angry part.

 

[HopeKillCure]

Fellas, don't listen to this person.

 

[thewarrior05]

I feel way older than 29 (if u want to rd up 30) tho...i feel tired and beat down mentally. i feel 80 up staris....life feels kinda over and now im just waking up going through the motions...

I'm just existing .....

I'm trying to be happy but then i start thinking about all the things that i didn't accomplish and feel like a failure and a fool for wasting so many years of my life chasing something that I don't even believe exist

but that's my fault

If ur alive as a black man and ur not a zombie in the system ur a success to me cnn said we would be dead by twenty one or in jail ur neither move foward and remember money can be made but it dont make u..... Just grind and believe in ur self and what the universal god put in everyone especially the best original man on the planet..... The black man ur a king stop letting ur emotions and what society says tell u different

 

[Rollo Goodlove]

I cant front, Im 25 and definitely want kids soon before Im 30-32. Money wise Im good but I need to be more mentally prepared, and I've good girls I've dated but Im just not ready. Me and my serious ex lost a baby and it fukked me up.

I said it another thread I have a lot of thoughts of different convos/situations/activities Im gonna have with my children to make sure they dont have the mentality I had and they feel loved and they grow up in a good healthy environment versus how I did.

Are you college educated ?

 

[MrFettuccinnePockets]

Cant have a family if you cant take care of yourself.

 

[At30wecashout]

I don't have baby fever, but I've thought about it. And a family, all that shyt. Problem is, I am years from that mindset, and I haven't met a woman in years
that made me think "damn, that could be my wife."

Best move is to keep my health right (Including putting my insurance to use), getting this bread, and becoming that dude.

 

[Tombstone]

Are you college educated ?

Still in school, got academic probation cuz I was workin on my own iish and no care for school.. Im Only in school to be the first person in my fam to graduate to please my mom, I have my own ecommerce/SEO businesses. And Im doin more than good.

Wont ever use my degree.

 

[315]

The older I get the less I want kids

 

[TheEgyptianConniption]

So find a good woman and start a family.

 

[larryshogunz]

OP. I think each person has their own path, but its always a temporary one. As we get older, we start having different wants in life that weren't their before. I also believe if our close siblings or homies have kids, it plays a role into wanting one. Bring a homie to a popwarner game and he starts getting thoughts. Lol.

I got 4 of them, breh. My oldest is a senior in high school and I'm only 35 (youngest is 8). Majority of my friends (male and female) don't have kids yet, but say they can't wait to be in my situation. While on the other hand, at times, I wish I could be in theirs.

I think it all depends on the person your having it with

 

[King Poetic]

If u a black man and over 30

More than likely u be running into already made families.

The numbers isn't in your favor

 

[Daio]

Sometimes.

I'm the last of my name that has a chance to have a son.

My brother had 3 girls n got a vasectomy.

It's all up to me.

 

[Address_Unknown]

You in your prime but ain't in a relationship where the decision to have kids is favorable? (Especially if Pamela keep rejecting ya kids) Consider freezing ya sperm like I did. :AU_FKRD:

I got alot of shyt I need done that going to require a few lifetimes on some Castlevania vibes. Even if I'm already decrepit the right type a young chocolated Sister comes along who with sticking to the script gonna birth me some well nourished and taken care of seeds who gonna hopefully go on and do great things having access to money and resources dear old Dad devoted a large chunk of his life to provide, with a minor regret of not having 'em sooner but shyt ain't panned out the way he wanted it.

 

[Taadow]

I sure as hell didn't...