Came home from a summer camp thing that was going on at my church and I remember seeing the little graphic at the bottom of the screen with his name,Nancy's, and Daniel's midway through the show. Didn't see NOC so I didn't know what was going on. Thought the thing with Vince was still going on and that someone from creative threw Chris into the story till I saw Vince in the ring and the crowd empty I think after they showed a few matches. I was like


.Turned to CNN realizing that this was a serious issue and not a WWE thing. Before the official news had came out, my young minded self thought Chris had the match at NOC, went home, and got killed/died along with his wife and son. Talked about it all the following day with my friends just trying to come up with some bs speculation and thinking they'll do another tribute on ECW. Tuned into ECW only to see Vince on the screen like *

no more Benoit

!!!!* Didn't think he really meant it till I went on WWE.com looking for some tribute shyt on Chris like they did for Eddie but nope. fukkked me up a bit cause it was outta the blue. Dude was legit on tv the week before and now he's gone.
Got a few old dvds with matches featuring Chris that I can't even look at anymore due to him taking shots to the head and hitting/missing the Diving Headbutt. Knowing that those impacts to the head along with other issues that lead to his death got me

He made a young me realize how much these wrestlers are willing to literally kill themselves for our entertainment and that it's not a game/business to be played with,this is real life. Anytime he'll go for the Diving Headbutt, we'll all be like *






* while Chris on the outside would be like *


* but on the inside he was truly like *



*
Still think Eddie's death was another huge toll on Chris.
I know people that were hurt over losing someone close to them but when I looked at this like a year or two after the incidents, I was like " All the shyt that's coming out about how bad his health was, drug usage, and plus losing his best friend( friends if you wanna throw Sensational Sherri in also even though she was more so close to Nancy I believe), dude was really fukkked up bad all around and just lost it

When people talk about Benoit and where do we stand on him, I like to put my input in by saying that I'm still a fan of him due to what he did in the ring, not what he did in his personal life and especially not in those final three days. That's why I can't be like or get why people be on some fucckk Benoit shyt

. Hearing stories from people that knew him and how they say that he loved Nancy even though they had problems and how he loved Daniel just shows that he wasn't right in the head during that time. Some wrestling fans just make it seem like Chris just woke up that Friday or had been planning for months to do the killings before offing himself
even though evidence shows that he was completely gone and not the same person that most knew him out to be.

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