In light of the recent changes in my life, it has caused me to reflect on the past. i made so many mistakes...

i always seem to make it to the fork in the road and go in the wrong direction. at 35 years old, i'm not happy with where i am. i got

, i let my marriage fall apart (when i probably could have done something to fix it a long time ago), my finances have suffered for a long time (although my money is looking a lot better nowadays), etc.
With all that said, i hired a personal trainer and got back in the gym (already 4lbs. down), i have finally acceped the fact that this marriage is not going to work for either of us and hurled all thoughts of a possible reconciliation into the bushes, and i have started making smarter and more calculated decisions when it comes to my finance. i'm a lot less wasteful and am very concious of what i'm spending my money on. it's only a few steps so far, but they are finally in the right direction. the next 2 years will be spent rebuilding myself. i liked being married, but when it ends it tears everything in your life apart before it's finally done. it's like a tornado. i'll probably never do it again.
i'm rambling....

i just need to vent