I'm extremely self hating. Was when I was an adolescent. Still am now. Since I didnt mesh well with the other black kids I came up with, my experiences with other black people has been largely negative. Feel like my entire perspective would be different if I came up somewhere that was at least 50-60 percent black.
Well I can respect your honesty. Most people on this board would probably call you names...but given your situation and where you came up from it takes honesty and courage to say the things you did in this thread.
To be honest I made this thread cause I wanted to share perspective on the black experience. That's why I wanted people that grew up in the hood to comment. They like to act like our type doesn't know struggle but our struggle is different...but still the same struggle that encompasses black people in a white society.
I think there are a good amount of black people that grew up in the burbs that wish they were white. That see themselves in a white lens. They see how easy it is to get ahead being white, how easy it is to have relationships with the opposite sex being white, and it cripples them emotionally cause they want these things but are aware of the stigma that presents itself trying to do these or pursue these while black.
Honestly it was learning about black history from early African civilization to the civil rights movement that gave me a sense of pride about my blackness. And learning about white supremacy. It made me love and appreciate black people...and to be honest...hate white society in the same breath. I can't love a society or people that hates my existence.
The things about white supremacy is that in order to prosper/survive in it as a minority, you have to ascribe to the belief that somehow we are...inferior as black people to..whites lol.
White people stole whole countries, enslaved people to build a society that gives them unearned privileges. White people stole the accomplishments of people of color and claimed them as their own. White society is based on controlling the hearts and minds of the masses. People don't get this.
So as a black man, whenever I see white people, with their genetic inferiority, that burn and peel in the sun, subconsciously try to tell us...The original people...that they are better...I have to laugh.