fukk....how can I...she invades every aspect of my life.
Dreams...phone...emails...social media...
She was my first love, but I definitely wasn't her first love...
And yet, for some odd reason...she says i'm her one true love...the only one that ever really loved her.

Yet, it didn't keep her from marrying the raghead her family arranged for her to marry...only to get abused and made a house-slave for 10 years before she filed for divorce and fled to the other side of the country, fearing an allah-akbar style honor-killing from her famliy and the dudes family.
She could have had the world with me...instead she chose to be a dumbass and follow her family.
And when her parents are gone and dead...she will have nothing...and no one but her son.
Oh well...she made her choices...she lives with her consequences.
Last time she emailed me a few months back, she complained that "life is so hard and people are so horrible..."
I basically told her "too bad...so sad. My life is fukking awesome!! Too bad you chose a loser and failed at life!"

I can't fake sympathy with this female a day longer...not after all the hurt and pain she's caused me.
This chick always starts contacting me when she gets dumped by whoever is fukking her, thinking it's still the old days where i'll dump anyone I'm with to coddle her and tell her everything's gonna be okay. You can almost set your watch to her whoredom...2-3 months...every time.
Nope, grew up and blew up...ain't got time for the bullshyt.
Honestly, I hope that she just fades into the ether now...She has nothing to offer and I don't want anything from her.
Lets just avoid each other without publicly appearing to do so...