Do you ever truly get over your first love?

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People change. Sometimes, you just realize that they aren't the same people anymore because their personality and essence has essentially transformed. And that's how you get over them. By looking at them for who they are CURRENTLY, and not the person you thought they used to be. Love blinds you. My ex, for example. I cared about this woman deeply. We would have minor arguments that added up and we ended up going our own ways.

She couldn't let go. She always contacts me saying she wants to hang out and get together every 2 or three months. I get excited because I feel our situation is kind of unfinished. And then she fukking flakes. Every. Single. Time. I can't understand because SHE initiates the shyt every occasion. I think she thinks that that'll make me chase her and miss her. But it has the opposite effect. Makes me realize what a piece of shyt she is now and how she's not the same woman she used to be. Caring, thoughtful, considerate, etc. Makes it easier for me to charge her to the game and she's making my heart more cold towards her with each flake. That's why I allow her to keep doing it...
 
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:yeshrug:I don't think so. I don't think about her much, and definitely not with the same adoration/disgust I did at one point, but literally everything that went down
with us has changed me as a person, so whether I actively love her or not, her essence is all over everything I do to this day. I think the only person who has had
a greater effect on my life is my mother.

i married mine....

didnt work out well....and youre right i think about her everyday....

but shes not who i thought she was. AT ALL.....
 

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:dame: thank god I have never been in love or all that shyt before because I ain't showing any man my weakness
 

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Nope. I was just thinking about him today. I always wonder what happened to him. I met him when I was 20, we both were the same age, both gemini's. Met on a blind date that I had to be dragged to kicking and screaming but we just vibed talk for a few hours. I made the mistake of not getting his number. He didnt ask for mine, I was confident we would meet again & I didnt want to come off as desperate. My friend was cool with his friend & he tried to reach out to me a few times but I never got a call. My friend told me that she saw him at the mall looking 'dusty'. I found out later that he had a baby. I was hurt by that honestly. Because when we met neither one of us had kids, I still dont. But I would love to see how he is doing right now. :mjcry:
 
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Nikka for the love of god move!!!

:dbldamn:

Man....

I'm rent controlled. Been here since I was 5.

I'd love to move but it just doesn't make sense.

If these walls could talk.

My mother was stretchered out of this apartment when she was dying of cancer.

You have no idea how many memories are stored in here. Low key I hate my apartment but I'm not l3aving and paying triple.
:mjcry:
 
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No. I lost faith in the concept of love or a benevolent God when I saw our paths were unable to cross no matter how much I tried. We just settle for 60/40 rule and fake it for the rest of our lives with someone else.

Edit: When I was 21 and met her, it was like a constant high and feeling of comfort. She had a distinct smell, maybe pheromones. I didn't feel like myself. I felt beyond infatuated. Like I could never have a bad day and couldn't wait to see her again. Eventually, the music industry divided us and I couldn't make the money to keep her plus I was young and insecure. Don't even wanna Google her or check on her but I'm sure she's married and maybe it was meant to be in another life. Eventually after that, all relationships are just p*ssy and white noise.
 
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