Do You Know Anyone Close to Have Committed Suicide?

[StretfordRed]

It’s the most surreal feeling in the world and pretty much punches you in the gut over and over again

Someone in my family committed suicide 10 years ago and its literally only today I’ve let the shyt sink in and tried to start processing it.

I think too often as black men we’re taught to internalise a lot of things and try and soldier through things. But I’ve found thats OK with a “normal” death e.g. from illness or old age. But when it’s suicide you ask yourself so many questions. Should, coulda, woulda. It keeps you up at night. Give you nightmares, makes you shed tears.

It was only until seeing a therapist so many years later that I realised I had tried to soldier through the whole situation and really and truly, it didn’t help shyt. You just pack it away until later when other life things can trigger your emotions again

Has anyone else dealt with suicide of someone close? What is your story? How are you finding it? And do you have any tips?

 

[Karb]

No (thank God). But I saw a woman hang herself out the window when I was a kid.

 

[Doobie Doo]

Never knew anyone who committed that and in this day and age, knowing what I know now, if I felt someone was going to I would distance myself as far as possible from the person for fear of a murder-suicide type of deal.

 

[MrFettuccinnePockets]

Yes

 

[Taadow]

Yes.

We were in the same class and his sister was in the same class as my sister, so we used to hang.
Their parents got a divorce, and it was really messy. His mama got custody of him, and his father
got custody of his sister so he moved away. Within the next couple of years he committed dat.
He was 17.

 

[Gold]

Had 2 people commit suicide in boarding school. One was grades related, one was bullying related.

The second happened over winter break, so they didn't find his body till they we came back from the dorms from vacation.

But nah i wasn't close to either of them.

 

[Faneto4]

my homie did..yea its really hard..especially cause you don't get any closure..or start thinking about being there more for them..i honestly don't know how to deal with it

 

[Family Man]

An old girlfriend of mine took her life last September. Left her husband and five year old twin daughters behind.
I felt bad for her then anger at her for what she did.

I'm really mad at her and I miss her a lot and can't believe she doesn't exist anymore.
http://m.legacy.com/dignity-memoria...a-Desravins&lc=5248&pid=181406088&mid=7087943

 

[Tide Run This]

Neighbor 6 houses down killed himself last September

 

[™BlackPearl The Empress™]

I know 2 people who committed suicide. One did it because he had multiple sclerosis and was in terrible pain. The crazy thing is I've seen people who have "cured" themselves through diet changes. He could have lived a normal life had he chose to educate himself.

The second dude was a Black Muslim who shot up a Safeway warehouse because he was being harassed about his religion at work. He took out a few people and then killed himself.

 

[Rawtid]

I've thought about it multiple times, but never had the guts to do it. As sad as it is, there is some "bravery" to go through with it and I would never judge anyone that felt it was their only way but would not encourage it either.

 

[TL15]

Lost the closest person in the world to me due to suicide ...literally...not a homie or a friend or someone I knew...the most important person in my life

I don't know how comfortable I am going into too many details but it always hurts.

 

[Black Sinatra]

Yes. An Army buddy of mine suicided. A lot of us that new him took it hard, because he had gotten out and came across very rough times. In retrospect, I think I could have assisted him and took heed to the signs on his facebook wall. Taking people for granted and expecting strong men to be strong all the time is a culture that may have led to this.

I have been in this dark space personally before. Real talk, its a odd balance of freedom, fear and pain. This taught me to not run from those specific three things...but I self diagnosed and have since compartmentalized the strongest leaning to darkness on that particuliar spectrum. This is not suggested for others, I reserve this part of myself for my own analysis and possibly "emergency use" ...in a situation that requires self sacfrifice for specifically my offspring.

 

[BlackAlacard]

I've had 2 close friends commit suicide , and have known or known of maybe close to a dozen more. In both instances I think it was a combination of many things that caused them to do so. In my own personal instance it was the ending of my career that made me contemplate doing so. I had everything ready but I guess my family had an intuition, my sister specifically ( she's a psychologist for the VA) and wouldn't let me out of there sight for the day. I was admitted against my will, ended up spending about a month and half up on the 6th floor of the Debakey VA hospital here in Houston.

 

[AlainLocke]

Yeah...but I wasn't sad...I was relieved...ain't least they ain't suffering no more...