Ever go through periods of your life where it just feels like nothing is going right?

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And then it's like I got nikkas that literally call my phone all day for no fukking reason... Just to talk.

And not to have a real conversation... Literally just for them to talk about they problems and me to listen like I ain't got my own shyt to deal with. I literally cut my phone off or just let that shyt die now. Only time I feel like talking is if Im drunk and even thats rare. I say more on this bytch than IRL
 

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I'm in that shyt right now. Most of it is due to my laziness, though. I'm not doing what I want with my life, im smitten with a chick for the first time in ages and shes taken, my motivation is low,
my work ethic is the liquid shyts, and every important event nowadays seems to come with some ill-fated nonsense.

I don't even understand why it is that happens, but im most frustrated because my lack of success is making me lose motivation to work my way out, which means even less success, which
means less motivation...nahmean?
Damn. I feel this. I been going through this for 8 years

Come this close to pulling my way out. Good job good skills all I need to do is finish strong and make this paper for a few more months and I’m out of my parents house for good RIGHT?

Bam. Arrested. Major death in the family. I might lose my job now and we’re set back at least 7-8k in lost revenue, time, court fees and mortuary fees when everything all said and done. This happens within 2 weeks of each other. I could have been ahead of the curve and made thousands because I was planning on buying cryptocurrency before it blew up. Because of this I’m still watching from the sidelines :mjcry:

I’m used to this now tho I feel as if something is keeping me from ever realizing my full potential.
 

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yup. last week i had to shell out 1k to get my car fixed in the middle of no where an hour from my house. was snowing my breaks locked up as i was going down a hill through an intersection. i had to either hit a truck or a sign and went with the sign and over 2 curbs. had to get my car towed down the street, oil pan replacement and new spark plugs. a fukking grand!

i’m working a new job that i started last week that i hate. it’s just something until i can start my apprenticeship with the union somewhere between 4-12 weeks from now. the money is shyt and the work is tedious.. carbon fiber vacuumed baging infusion. my co workers all barely speak english which sucks learning from someone who you can barely understand

i owe 5k to a college i attended for like two weeks. got some credit card debt

i’m never going to pay off my debt. i for context, i get almost 200 in food stamps but i give the card to my mom to buy food since the family is struggling since my dad cheated on my mom and isn’t living here no more. my grandpa and my mentally challenged brother mom and me live in the house and helping my mom out leaves me broke.

even once i start the job with the union and will be making way more money, better benefits, health insurance and pay off debt etc i feel like i’m stuck. i want to get out on my own and get my own crib but i feel like i’d be abandoning my mom and she hinted at me that it’s selfish of me to want to do that considering she’s struggling and will be for awhile. i just feel like my mom is dependent on me emotionally as well. i’m like her personal therapist and it gets old. she got issues from child hood trauma and i’m the person who’s always there for her to lay them on. when i lived in florida she begged me back. i’m her baby, my sister dipped when she got preggo at 15/16 and my bro isn’t exactly mentally there enough to be a shoulder to lean on. my dad never was. but it gets tiring. i’m fukking 28. i wanna get my life going, get my own place and most parents would encourage that.. not my mom. she encourages me to live at home forever. i hate it snd i know it’s for her own personal gain.

i just feel like whenever i take a step forward life always fukks me over and pushed me two steps back

also doesn’t help that i struggle with manic depression. i just feel like whatever i’m trying to do is useless. either way i’ll be stuck
I know how that family shyt feels. This supposed to be a holiday but around them everything feels like a uncomfortable ass job.

You have winter spring summer and fall. Good days, ok days, bad days, not the best days. Cycles are a part of life....The key is not being so focused on the bad moments that u overlook the good. Like for instance, most of u right now have functioning legs....and there is someone who is bound to a wheelchair right now who would trade your problems for his/hers just to walk. There is someone right now in prison doing life who would trade with you to have your problems and be free.
True..

Still doesn't take away that you got your own problems. Everybody got problems... Some more extreme than others but a bunch of lil shyt can be just as dangerous as a bunch of big shyt.

And I got metal rods in both legs.. I know how it feels to be in a wheelchair. Pretty much in some sort of leg pain daily
 

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yup. last week i had to shell out 1k to get my car fixed in the middle of no where an hour from my house. was snowing my breaks locked up as i was going down a hill through an intersection. i had to either hit a truck or a sign and went with the sign and over 2 curbs. had to get my car towed down the street, oil pan replacement and new spark plugs. a fukking grand!

i’m working a new job that i started last week that i hate. it’s just something until i can start my apprenticeship with the union somewhere between 4-12 weeks from now. the money is shyt and the work is tedious.. carbon fiber vacuumed baging infusion. my co workers all barely speak english which sucks learning from someone who you can barely understand

i owe 5k to a college i attended for like two weeks. got some credit card debt

i’m never going to pay off my debt. i for context, i get almost 200 in food stamps but i give the card to my mom to buy food since the family is struggling since my dad cheated on my mom and isn’t living here no more. my grandpa and my mentally challenged brother mom and me live in the house and helping my mom out leaves me broke.

even once i start the job with the union and will be making way more money, better benefits, health insurance and pay off debt etc i feel like i’m stuck. i want to get out on my own and get my own crib but i feel like i’d be abandoning my mom and she hinted at me that it’s selfish of me to want to do that considering she’s struggling and will be for awhile. i just feel like my mom is dependent on me emotionally as well. i’m like her personal therapist and it gets old. she got issues from child hood trauma and i’m the person who’s always there for her to lay them on. when i lived in florida she begged me back. i’m her baby, my sister dipped when she got preggo at 15/16 and my bro isn’t exactly mentally there enough to be a shoulder to lean on. my dad never was. but it gets tiring. i’m fukking 28. i wanna get my life going, get my own place and most parents would encourage that.. not my mom. she encourages me to live at home forever. i hate it snd i know it’s for her own personal gain.

i just feel like whenever i take a step forward life always fukks me over and pushed me two steps back

also doesn’t help that i struggle with manic depression. i just feel like whatever i’m trying to do is useless. either way i’ll be stuck
yup. last week i had to shell out 1k to get my car fixed in the middle of no where an hour from my house. was snowing my breaks locked up as i was going down a hill through an intersection. i had to either hit a truck or a sign and went with the sign and over 2 curbs. had to get my car towed down the street, oil pan replacement and new spark plugs. a fukking grand!

i’m working a new job that i started last week that i hate. it’s just something until i can start my apprenticeship with the union somewhere between 4-12 weeks from now. the money is shyt and the work is tedious.. carbon fiber vacuumed baging infusion. my co workers all barely speak english which sucks learning from someone who you can barely understand

i owe 5k to a college i attended for like two weeks. got some credit card debt

i’m never going to pay off my debt. i for context, i get almost 200 in food stamps but i give the card to my mom to buy food since the family is struggling since my dad cheated on my mom and isn’t living here no more. my grandpa and my mentally challenged brother mom and me live in the house and helping my mom out leaves me broke.

even once i start the job with the union and will be making way more money, better benefits, health insurance and pay off debt etc i feel like i’m stuck. i want to get out on my own and get my own crib but i feel like i’d be abandoning my mom and she hinted at me that it’s selfish of me to want to do that considering she’s struggling and will be for awhile. i just feel like my mom is dependent on me emotionally as well. i’m like her personal therapist and it gets old. she got issues from child hood trauma and i’m the person who’s always there for her to lay them on. when i lived in florida she begged me back. i’m her baby, my sister dipped when she got preggo at 15/16 and my bro isn’t exactly mentally there enough to be a shoulder to lean on. my dad never was. but it gets tiring. i’m fukking 28. i wanna get my life going, get my own place and most parents would encourage that.. not my mom. she encourages me to live at home forever. i hate it snd i know it’s for her own personal gain.

i just feel like whenever i take a step forward life always fukks me over and pushed me two steps back

also doesn’t help that i struggle with manic depression. i just feel like whatever i’m trying to do is useless. either way i’ll be stuck
i feel you. And being 28. I’m 26 and I’m at he point where I’m seriously considering just being homeless for a few months because I’m so tired of living like it in high school still.

When the time came for most people to go out on their own I was struggling with things like drug abuse/ depression/ lack of motivation etc so that really set me back...but after 8 or so years I just can’t take it anymore. I can’t take the lack of personal life. Friends (the few that I had) all moved away or stopped being in contact so it’s like I don’t even recognize anyone in my own city anymore. I just want to get over this phase of my lifealready
 

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Lol. Describes how I feel about my life most of the time since i was a preteen where its gotten worse the older ive become. I'm surprised that I haven't snapped on somebody yet on some shyt. I try to be cool and calm but it seems like something or somebody really wants to fukk with me on some bullshyt. A lot of times that somebody that fukks with me is me. It's like I'm my worst enemy and then someone has to throw their shyt in there to make me feel even worse. I can see why I'm angry, depressed, and basically negative most of the time.

So I'm trying, man but I'd be lying to you if I said that this really didn't get to me. Now when I go home, I know that whatever I managed to push to the back is going to come out when I'm in my room alone. Those painful feelings are going to overwhelm me and I'm going to be in bed sleeping my pain off. Just alone thinking about why I'm so fukked up, everyone else around me who basically isn't around when I need them and just basically suffering alone in silence. Then it's going to be a cycle where I just wish it would stop. It's torture. I feel like I'm doing a life sentence. Just thinking about it makes me have trouble breathing. I can't see myself living like this for another 5 years let alone a year. This is way too much.

I basically isolate myself away from other people so they don't know about how bad shyt is. I bet some people think I'm really enjoying life not even whats going on. I don't even bother to fukk with social media like that where everyone wants to post themselves enjoying life, their successes and etc. I have nothing good to show or positive shyt to mention. I can't even post a picture with me smiling because I'd be lying if I said I was happy with myself and my life.

Focus on what you can control. What can you do, even if it's a tiny little thing, to improve your life?

Also, reflect on what you might be doing that actually makes things even worse. How might you be sabotaging your own life?

Think of it this way, breh. If you took the happiest person on earth and you gave him your lifestyle, your sleeping habits, your drinking and eating habits, your tendency to ruminate over the past and all types of other things that you can't do shyt about anyway, would that person still be happy?

You need to take a step back and try to see the big picture.
 

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or everything is unnecessarily complicated, a struggle, annoying, etc.

Its literally how I feel today. Everything is difficult from traffic, people (being in the fukking way more than anything), parking, family members, etc.

I even pulled up to my favorite sushi spot to get some food/sake and chill then the chick straight up looked at me and said "we don't serve sake here" like I was crazy.

Im like I literally came 2 months ago and yall had the shyt:gucci:

Relationships are whatever as well.. I literally feel like dipping out on everyone for awhile.

Even my electronics are fukking up.
Whole life like this fam, I just wing it.
 

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A lot of that is psychological, the main issue that is bothering you clouds everything else, taints it with a negative, or overly dramatic stain.

If you are (for example) hurt over a romantic situation, or stressing on money, the traffic, the line at the lunch spot, the unreturned text, the person walking slow in front of you, becomes much more noticeable. But, imagine if you are way up, meet someone new, work is going great, all of the sudden, everything may happen the same way, traffic, lines, whatever, but your mind will barely register it.
 

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Damn. I feel this. I been going through this for 8 years

Come this close to pulling my way out. Good job good skills all I need to do is finish strong and make this paper for a few more months and I’m out of my parents house for good RIGHT?

Bam. Arrested. Major death in the family. I might lose my job now and we’re set back at least 7-8k in lost revenue, time, court fees and mortuary fees when everything all said and done. This happens within 2 weeks of each other. I could have been ahead of the curve and made thousands because I was planning on buying cryptocurrency before it blew up. Because of this I’m still watching from the sidelines :mjcry:

I’m used to this now tho I feel as if something is keeping me from ever realizing my full potential.
Yea, for this reason I feel I have to drastically switch up. A plane ticket to San Fran or Atlanta...or fukk it, Idaho...it isn't very expensive. It's possible that a change in scenery and putting myself
in a situation to sink or swim could get me right. I haven't had the same type of issues, but there is a domino effect when particular parts of life go wrong, and it can take years to get right
again. I don't know what to say other than go nuts and do shyt that don't make sense. I bought a camera, gonna buy some supplies, and start this business with absolutely no expectations.
shyt ain't popping how I want, but instead of doing something, I sat on the bench. Not to say you are, but if we are honest with ourselves, are we giving 100%? It's easy to be working
when shyt is going right...but are we on our shyt right now???? I for damn sure am not, even though i've made strides. Just getting my fukking first cert was an incredible feeling.
 

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All the time. We all do but some people may be good at hiding it better than others...

Problems with people or money or life goals always pop up ...

Just keep at it ... something worth smiling about doesn't take that long to happen ...
 
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