Ever go through periods of your life where it just feels like nothing is going right?

[FSP]

Yea, for this reason I feel I have to drastically switch up. A plane ticket to San Fran or Atlanta...or fukk it, Idaho...it isn't very expensive. It's possible that a change in scenery and putting myself
in a situation to sink or swim could get me right. I haven't had the same type of issues, but there is a domino effect when particular parts of life go wrong, and it can take years to get right
again. I don't know what to say other than go nuts and do shyt that don't make sense. I bought a camera, gonna buy some supplies, and start this business with absolutely no expectations.
shyt ain't popping how I want, but instead of doing something, I sat on the bench. Not to say you are, but if we are honest with ourselves, are we giving 100%? It's easy to be working
when shyt is going right...but are we on our shyt right now???? I for damn sure am not, even though i've made strides. Just getting my fukking first cert was an incredible feeling.

Yes. Can say with confidence that lately I have been going hard. Not 100%. Not there yet. But 90% at least for sure working my way up to 100%. Like I said I’m stoked because I finally reached the point to where I can use my skills that it took me years of frustration and isolation to build. I feel like I’m finally good enough to use them now. So I’ve been going hard at research and software, design, etc. I don’t even want to sleep anymore. Damn it. Something is going to happen in my life and it’s going to be in my 20s. I don’t care about embarrassment anymore. I don’t care about social anxiety anymore. When I’m awake I’m shooting for something everyday. When I’m out I’m talking to at least 1 chick everytime. This is all recent but like I said the arrest and the death set a lot of my plans back. shyt right now I’m trying to bust out an Android app for a client and I gotta go to the funeral tomorrow. It’s hard but we gonna make it bro. You me OP AND that white bytch. Were all gonna make it

 

[sanityovar8ted]

For the last 2 years n currently

 

[Brehcepticon]

Everybody gets the business at some point. It's like the universe sits there and says "Whose day am I going to fukk with? @O.T.I.S. , that's who "

Smoke some weed, drink a little, or whatever it is that chills you out on a shyt day.

 

[Vandelay]

Yep.

I recognize it's 98% my fault though.

 

[Francis White]

2016 to 2017 nothing can be worse than this I hope.

1. Beginning of 2016 lose my job
2. My cat dies
3. No money means no dating and I lose the one I liked.
4. Start working mid 2016 but by this time I have negative savings.
5. 2017 : January my father dies. 2 weeks later my mom dies also.
6. I live in a rent control apartment that my landlord is trying to get back. I’m 6 thousand down in lawyer fees. Case still in court.
7. Dating life put on hold again with no funds to spare. Life sucks but I have traveled to relieve the stress.

 

[King Poetic]

2006....

lost my job

lost so called friends when i lost my job, who i thought who was going to help me out and not even 5 bucks

debt was piling up

car was breaking down on freeways

 

[smokeurobinson]

True..

Still doesn't take away that you got your own problems. Everybody got problems... Some more extreme than others but a bunch of lil shyt can be just as dangerous as a bunch of big shyt.

And I got metal rods in both legs.. I know how it feels to be in a wheelchair. Pretty much in some sort of leg pain daily

Thats why u have to fake it in your head. Sometimes u have to lie in your own mind about how fukked up life really is. Thats the only way to stay sane.

Best example I can use was how Christiphor Columbus lied about having a royal background. Dude was lying to himself so good that he actually convinced himself it was true and got the queen to believe it to were she funded his trip to the west Indies. Thats one of the best examples of lying to yourself manifesting into recieving great things.

There's this thing I do were I imagine my life being a simulation and I'm really on another planet and I'm the God of that planet and I'm a good God, not like the one on this planet were people suffer...... on my planet everyone is a child and no one grows up or dies or feels pain and they only know happiness and I envision this planet we are own now. Earth, being an illusion...a simulation experiment that I put myself in like in Total Recall and that we are experiencing is what would happen if I let the children on my planet grow up and get old and die(kinda like what happened to Adam and Eve after being cast out of paradise). And all the pain I go thru here is just an illusion and a byproduct of what would happen if I let the children on my planet actually become adults(kinda like how when u were a kid things were more peaceful) Thats just something I do to stay sane. I have a lot more made up alternative realities and thats just one of them. I dont just accept what The Matrix says is reality....I create my own. The Matrixs version of reality leaves one hopeless and depressed. I learned about creating mental alternative realities from Prince.

 

[Kiyoshi-Dono]

immunity/ inflammation related?

Inflammation in my right side..
Found out arthritis runs in my family..
Polyps and tumor removed..
Also stomach cancer/colon cancer runs in both sides but I’m being treated for crohns and ibs but the doctors can’t pinpoint my symptoms..
So I’ve changed my diet dramatically and have been working out

What caused you to get sick?

Damn.

Can eating healthy and exercising reverse or prevent it?

Age/genetics..
If you start to have severe stomach pains, dry heaving, constipation, etc..
It could be an indicator of colon cancer or something else..
Polyps don’t show up in X-rays or catscans, so you just need to be in tune with yourself and not let doctors or people tell you that it’s all in your head..
I’ve been reading of colon cancer, colorectal cancer has been increasing and showing up in people as young as 19..
My diet did consist of high red meat intake and soda..
But now I’m strictly drinking water; Gatorade, tea or simply juices..
Vegeatables/fruits and chicken or fish..
Losing weight so it should help with both the arthritis and whatever is going on with my stomach..
Like I said earlier, prevention and not letting doctors dictate their opinion on you, can save your life..

 

[O YOU MAD BRA]

@SmallWorld

 

[mortuus est]

Sometimes u have to lie in your own mind about how fukked up life really is. Thats the only way to stay sane.

its so hard bro

when you do that but something just fuks up your vibe , you feel to do a self destructive wave and end it all

 

[TheBlackSun]

Lol doesn't everyone? This entire year has been pretty much that feeling, and it's been rough for a LOT of people. I won't complain too much, and instead count my blessings. Don't believe that shyt you see on social media. A lot of people are frontin' like they have it all together, when in reality they don't have a fukking red cent to their name, and their life is crashing down around them. I hope 2018 will be better for myself, and for others.

 

[smokeurobinson]

its so hard bro

when you do that but something just fuks up your vibe , you feel to do a self destructive wave and end it all

It is hard. Thats because we are so used to the Matrixs version of what life is. TV, Movies, society and social media is the Matrix telling us what life is and we all just go along with which creates our shortcomings because of the unrealistic demands placed on us that we cant meet.

Bobby Hemmit stressed that we are God having a dream and that this is all an illusion and that it seems real because its God dreaming so of course its gonna seem real. I remember taking that all in and at first going "well if I blow my brains out I'll just wake up and be God again" Bobby stressed that the subconscious is programmed by what we put in it and the subconscious mind, which has god like powers, will bring u whatever you have programmed it to believe. So yes its hard but thats the Heru vs Set battle that everyone has to go thru. Constant repeating of the new version of seeing things, outside of what The Matrix has told us all our life, takes time with trial and error.

 

[mortuus est]

It is hard. Thats because we are so used to the Matrixs version of what life is. TV, Movies, society and social media is the Matrix telling us what life is and we all just go along with which creates our shortcomings because of the unrealistic demands placed on us that we cant meet.

Bobby Hemmit stressed that we are God having a dream and that this is all an illusion and that it seems real because its God dreaming so of course its gonna seem real. I remember taking that all in and at first going "well if I blow my brains out I'll just wake up and be God again" Bobby stressed that the subconscious is programmed by what we put in it and the subconscious mind, which has god like powers, will bring u whatever you have programmed it to believe. So yes its hard but thats the Heru vs Set battle that everyone has to go thru. Constant repeating of the new version of seeing things, outside of what The Matrix has told us all our life, takes time with trial and error.

this is why you're one of my favourite coli brehs

 

[NoChillJones]

or everything is unnecessarily complicated, a struggle, annoying, etc.

Its literally how I feel today. Everything is difficult from traffic, people (being in the fukking way more than anything), parking, family members, etc.

I even pulled up to my favorite sushi spot to get some food/sake and chill then the chick straight up looked at me and said "we don't serve sake here" like I was crazy.

Im like I literally came 2 months ago and yall had the shyt

Relationships are whatever as well.. I literally feel like dipping out on everyone for awhile.

Even my electronics are fukking up.

The mundane workday.....tommorow is always better breh

 

[MrPentatonic]

Inflammation in my right side..
Found out arthritis runs in my family..
Polyps and tumor removed..
Also stomach cancer/colon cancer runs in both sides but I’m being treated for crohns and ibs but the doctors can’t pinpoint my symptoms..
So I’ve changed my diet dramatically and have been working out

Age/genetics..
If you start to have severe stomach pains, dry heaving, constipation, etc..
It could be an indicator of colon cancer or something else..
Polyps don’t show up in X-rays or catscans, so you just need to be in tune with yourself and not let doctors or people tell you that it’s all in your head..
I’ve been reading of colon cancer, colorectal cancer has been increasing and showing up in people as young as 19..
My diet did consist of high red meat intake and soda..
But now I’m strictly drinking water; Gatorade, tea or simply juices..
Vegeatables/fruits and chicken or fish..
Losing weight so it should help with both the arthritis and whatever is going on with my stomach..
Like I said earlier, prevention and not letting doctors dictate their opinion on you, can save your life..

I feel you, I got an autoimmune / inflammation related skin condition and from what I hear it's not uncommon for them to come in together with another inflammatory disease.
Had a milkshake recently and had severe stomach pains and movements for a week. Kinda suggests IBS in my mind along with all that's been happening..hope not but the signs are pointing towards it.

Read up on the auto-immune protocol diet too if you ain't up on it.

Hope all goes well bro, I know how tough it is to have all this bs all of a sudden