Get in here & tell us why u ain't/are shyt [self-realizations] [Daps/Rep 4 Honesty]

[GoPro]

I realized sometimes I have the nerve to take my bad moods out on my parents, who love me and support me like nobody else, but never on random acquaintances.

When I'm having a bad day, the pressure to be socially acceptable pushes me to stay chill in public, but when I get home I sort of crumble and burst and sometimes act like a little shyt to people who are absolutely not to blame. And I really shouldn't just bottle in all my frustrations and wait to sulk when I'm home, because the people I'm closest to are the ones who should have me at my best and my most helpful.

I do the same thing with moms. I'm too nice and helpful to outsiders, but wild short and distant with her. Low key I blame her for not pushing me when I was growing up like African and Asian parents. Instead she spoiled me undeservedly and still seems intent on leaving me a 6 figure inheritance. I know I'm gonna regret my behavior when she's gone, if she goes first, yet I still do it. Wtf

 

[Dreamzeedream]

Being a people pleaser. I think the reason why is because i always wanted to be accepted and feel like I belong to something, why? I honestly don't know. I'm a big procrastinator. I feel like I have a huge amount of potential when it comes to alot of things but me being lazy is what stops me from getting what I want out of life. Always turning the other cheek and letting people get away with shyt when I shouldn't have and also not being myself sooner than later. fukk what anybody thinks I'm me at the end of the day

 

[onelastdeath]

Being a people pleaser. I think the reason why is because i always wanted to be accepted and feel like I belong to something, why? I honestly don't know. I'm a big procrastinator. I feel like I have a huge amount of potential when it comes to alot of things but me being lazy is what stops me from getting what I want out of life. Always turning the other cheek and letting people get away with shyt when I shouldn't have and also not being myself sooner than later. fukk what anybody thinks I'm me at the end of the day

I used to do that, and I started to form a lot of false friendships. I was always down for everyone else, and no one was around to help me when it came time. It's about being you, and growing at your own pace.

 

[Dreamzeedream]

I used to do that, and I started to form a lot of false friendships. I was always down for everyone else, and no one was around to help me when it came time. It's about being you, and growing at your own pace.

Ain't that's the truth bro. I've learned that overtime

 

[onelastdeath]

Ain't that's the truth bro. I've learned that overtime

You're not responsible for anyone's happiness but your own breh. And anyone who's not happy seeing you happy

 

[Dreamzeedream]

You're not responsible for anyone's happiness but your own breh. And anyone who's not happy seeing you happy

Hell yea... u gotta love/take care of yourself ... If they ain't adding to your happiness, understanding of life or livelihood then for them, especially these women out here.... I feel u breh

 

[onelastdeath]

Hell yea... u gotta love/take care of yourself ... If they ain't adding to your happiness, understanding of life or livelihood then for them, especially these women out here.... I feel u breh

Exactly, that's the most important part.

Because no matter how people fukk you up mentally, or what messes they make in your mental makeup, no matter how anyone cuts you deep, no one comes back to clean up their mess. It's up to you. And in the end if you don't become whatever it is you want to, it's on you.

People don't give a fukk unless they need a favor, or they need consoling. Otherwise they're gone.

That's why I always put my first, and I will continue to do so until the day I have kids

 

[Dreamzeedream]

Exactly, that's the most important part.

Because no matter how people fukk you up mentally, or what messes they make in your mental makeup, no matter how anyone cuts you deep, no one comes back to clean up their mess. It's up to you. And in the end if you don't become whatever it is you want to, it's on you.

People don't give a fukk unless they need a favor, or they need consoling. Otherwise they're gone.

That's why I always put my first, and I will continue to do so until the day I have kids

What's crazy is sometime u don't find out who those ppl are until it's to late

 

[onelastdeath]

What's crazy is sometime u don't find out who those ppl are until it's to late

That's one of my biggest fears in life. Giving time to the wrong person. My mom gave 25 years of her life to a struggling drug addict. 2 kids and 25 years. She tried to get that man off of drugs. For years she forgave him for choosing drugs over his family and blowing rent/food money to get high.

When my mom died in 2012, this guy wasn't even by her side on her deathbed. I was. He Missed her funeral too. 25 years and he couldn't even put it down to go to her funeral. Where was he? Getting high breh. And the real kicker is that the man gets clean AFTER she dies, and decides to get remarried. Ain't that some shyt?

I'm not giving my youth to any fukked up people. Having eyes for the wrong people now, means looking out for the wrong people later. fukk the bullshyt, You gotta come first. At all times B. All times.

Don't wanna wake up old as shyt one day, realizing you lived your life for other people. Time is precious breh. Precious. And you gotta live the fukk outta this motherfukker while its here, because one day it'll be gone.

It comes down to rewards vs regrets. There's no in between and no shades of grey. Your happiness or theirs. Period.

 

[LucaBrasi]

I can be socially ackward and I'm stuck in past because of my crazy childhood, so much so it sometimes ruins relationships I'm devoted to in the present.

I can be lazy & procrastinate a lot even tho this year I am spinning that weakness on its head.

Graduated last december and started 2014 with 4 goals, get a job, get a drivers license, buy a car and find an apartment.

So far I've done 3 of the 4 and currently working on the last one

Now if I only can get over my ackwardness with people I don't know and get a girl thats really down

2014 might be the year LucaBrasi fvkked around and perfected himself

 

[VicMackey415]

I procrastinate like a muhfucca until its last minute then i get active

I tend to look out for myself in the grand scheme of things when Im in a relationship(is that really bad tho?)

I realize that I have a lot of untapped potential, guess I get comfortable and then feel I dont need to strive for better

I like to have my alone personal time away from everyone...my chick, family and my sqaud...i like doing my own thing

Sometimes I feel like the typical marriage thing isnt for me at times. I kinda want a female who understands we together long term w/o the label of marriage

 

[Dreamzeedream]

That's one of my biggest fears in life. Giving time to the wrong person. My mom gave 25 years of her life to a struggling drug addict. 2 kids and 25 years. She tried to get that man off of drugs. For years she forgave him for choosing drugs over his family and blowing rent/food money to get high.

When my mom died in 2012, this guy wasn't even by her side on her deathbed. I was. He Missed her funeral too. 25 years and he couldn't even put it down to go to her funeral. Where was he? Getting high breh. And the real kicker is that the man gets clean AFTER she dies, and decides to get remarried. Ain't that some shyt?

I'm not giving my youth to any fukked up people. Having eyes for the wrong people now, means looking out for the wrong people later. fukk the bullshyt, You gotta come first. At all times B. All times.

Don't wanna wake up old as shyt one day, realizing you lived your life for other people. Time is precious breh. Precious. And you gotta live the fukk outta this motherfukker while its here, because one day it'll be gone.

It comes down to rewards vs regrets. There's no in between and no shades of grey. Your happiness or theirs. Period.

It's crazy how things turn out in life ain't it??, he's ya father? Ya mom's was his blessing and he ain't realize until it was to late.

And that's my biggest fear, getting old and realizing I waste my life trying to live for others instead of living for myself.

I u. U dropping knowledge

 

[Dreamzeedream]

I procrastinate like a muhfucca until its last minute then i get active

I tend to look out for myself in the grand scheme of things when Im in a relationship(is that really bad tho?)

I realize that I have a lot of untapped potential, guess I get comfortable and then feel I dont need to strive for better

I like to have my alone personal time away from everyone...my chick, family and my sqaud...i like doing my own thing

Sometimes I feel like the typical marriage thing isnt for me at times. I kinda want a female who understands we together long term w/o the label of marriage

I think when it come t I relationships, u have to look out for yourself but at the same time u gotta find somebody to build with so you can go from looking out for me to looking out for us

 

[onelastdeath]

It's crazy how things turn out in life ain't it??, he's ya father? Ya mom's was his blessing and he ain't realize until it was to late.

And that's my biggest fear, getting old and realizing I waste my life trying to live for others instead of living for myself.

I u. U dropping knowledge

Nah he was like my Step Pops. He didn't see her as a blessing and used her as a lesson for the next one.

All that shyt makes me live for me. Never worry about nikkas judgin because in the end you're always your own jury

 

[TheArchitect]

Being a people pleaser. I think the reason why is because i always wanted to be accepted and feel like I belong to something, why? I honestly don't know. I'm a big procrastinator. I feel like I have a huge amount of potential when it comes to alot of things but me being lazy is what stops me from getting what I want out of life. Always turning the other cheek and letting people get away with shyt when I shouldn't have and also not being myself sooner than later. fukk what anybody thinks I'm me at the end of the day

You sound like the old me.... A LOT....kinda of freaky....