In my family there's little filter. We saw some shyt on TV about birth control & my mom will say she doesn't trust birth control cause I was born. It wasn't a personal attack but we say fukked up shyt as casual conversation.
I wonder if this bothers my kids now. They not only know I don't love their mom, but I only stayed with her so long because of them. Straight told them if they weren't born I woulda left her.
Black man/women is godThings like this is what made me ask. Another thread about Death made me think of this.
My mom was actually on birth control to avoid getting pregnant & God was like. I wasn't planned or supposed to live, by either parent.
I was a "miracle baby" & finding out I wasn't intended to be born made me more numb to the idea of dying in a world I wasn't actually wanted in to begin with.
My parents actively tried to prevent my birth. That is a fukked up feeling. My mom did her best for me once I came, but the knowledge she tried to not even have me?
I saw a movie like this.Imagine being conceived during a gang bang. Lol there's a chick from hs that got the football team to run a through her. A week later she found out and didn't know who the father was
It's so Demonic my friends
Dad:Black man/women is god
"Birthday sex"I looked up a
"When you were conceived" calculator and the estimate was the day before my mom's birthday
No story needed there
What kind of music do you do? Rap? Play instruments? Both? Write?
Don't do it. Some things you just can't unlearn.my brother has a closer relationship with my mother so she told him his backstory when they were drinking one night
he was SHOOK
so yeah....im good
Actually reading & having time to think, this is some really deep shyt breh. I have 2 grandkids & now I wonder if my daughter is doing what I did cause certain people say he being a lazy fukk boy now. But I know my daughter won't tell me the whole story, she'll tone it down so I don't trip. My son girl live with us & we got her a job & she in cosmetology school. He's the oldest & knows he's the only reason I stayed with their mom. I think he really loves her though & it's not the same shyt.Accountability + respect checks, which are largely missing in society at the moment. Don't you dare fukking get self righteous or demean the way I live life, my goals, objectives, etc. and tell me where I'm fukking up if you had the nerve to make a whole nikka (in this theoretical, me) by accident. If I was made under those circumstances and my parents were anything but giving me their best, long story short I'd be a troubled youth.
Aye breh, your entire post applies to me breh and describes my childhood, as well as a TON of kids of immigrants of various backgrounds (idk if you are or not). Only thing I don't have is a passion, (which sucks but it be like that sometimes). My parents were overly strict due to a lack of an example/template to follow (ie. no sleepovers, trick or treating, parties, not celebrating unnecessary holidays, not buying many gifts) while I was growing up. Granted they did account for things I would have probably done at some of those parties, when I asked why I couldn't go, my dad would always say "What's at the parties, huh? Alcohol and women and those two with boys your age will only lead to sex, are you ready for a kid?". I thought he was putting sauce on it but maaaan retrospectively that could of happened and if I had been introduced to alcohol too early my life would more likely than not lead to me being substantially far worse than where I am now. On the other hand some social experiences I wasn't permitted to go to like birthday parties, made me have to essentially learn some aspects of socializing by trial and error. While there are several gripes/grievances I have, ultimately I know given what they had to work with, they get an A- from me and I'm thankful.
Double edged sword breh, your kids will probably have a better sense of reality than their contemporaries (like me and bro did growing up). That allows you to sidestep maaaaaaad BS in your life, they'll be able to read people well, because you're transparent which is great. The converse is that they'll feel a sense burden like they have to become something notable ie. pushing near 6 figs by 40 at the least, or they weren't worth it, and they'll be jaded towards relationships or messy with them. It's kind of a crapshoot on whether they'll have kids under similar circumstances as you did, or if they'll strive to be as conventional as possible. I know I want exactly what my parents have an enduring marriage (preferably with 2 boys), but I don't want kids if I can't have them with a woman Iove and live the rest of my life with. Granted that means I'm more likely than not team die alone, but it's like that. My brother on the other hand really wants kids and essentially told me if he never finds someone he wants, he'll either settle or have a bm. shyt is complex mayne.
Most pregnancies aren't planned. Been that way since forever.
I play electric guitar and bass. I'm better at guitar though. At playing and with coming up with stuff. I wanna make all types of music, but I mostly like funk and rock. I'mma try to do something like Parliament-Funkadelic, D'Angelo, Prince and stuff like that. I like how they all had huge bands and blended all those different styles together. I try to learn something from every genre because each inspires me in different ways. I wanna piece it all together to make stuff that don't sound like anything else.
But don't think I'm bout to drop an album no time soon.
But believe me, breh. Imma have something one of these days.
