Dirty Mcdrawz
Your girl loves em....
Get better breh 
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90 meetings in 90 days
Props to you
Yeah, breh, it's gonna be hard, but there are like 3000 AA meetings every month in the Houston area. They only last for an hour, and they will keep me accountable. I gotta do this shyt, so this shyt never happens again. I feel like a fukk up, but I guess everybody needs help at some point in their lives (or at least I'll pretend that's true
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Yeah, breh, it's gonna be hard, but there are like 3000 AA meetings every month in the Houston area. They only last for an hour, and they will keep me accountable. I gotta do this shyt, so this shyt never happens again. I feel like a fukk up, but I guess everybody needs help at some point in their lives (or at least I'll pretend that's true
Is sex allowing?
Is sex allowing?
Definitely not. But some of the girls here....
They have the women in a separate wing than the men, so it would be pretty hard to find a place to fukk anyway. I'm sure some have found a way to do it though. I ain't even thinking about that right now. I'm working on me. I want to get better, for real
Definitely not. But some of the girls here....
They have the women in a separate wing than the men, so it would be pretty hard to find a place to fukk anyway. I'm sure some have found a way to do it though. I ain't even thinking about that right now. I'm working on me. I want to get better, for real
Do you have a sponsor?.
By the way, did you decide to go to rehab by yourself or your friend/family focused/encouraged you go to the rehab?
I had 2 sponsors, but they were terrible. I'm "sponsor shopping" now. Apparently there is a P11 (don't ask me what that means...
) group that meets of Fridays and Saturdays that focuses in on dual diagnoses. I'm bi-polar, an addict, and an alcoholic. I want a sponsor that understands bi-polar addicts and alcoholics. I hope to find a sponsor there (fingers crossed). At this facility, we have AA meetings 2-3 times a day, so perhaps I can find one during those meetings, but I dunno. I know I need one ASAP though.
Oh, and I decided to check myself in. I was able to hide my drinking from my family (or so I thought), so they never pressed me. My psychiatrist on the other hand, strongly suggested I go. I took her advice and went to the best rehab hospital in Houston (supposedly it's a top 5 rehab facility in the country). I'm on day 17 in the hospital. I've been sober since 3/11/18. That's big for me. I can't wait to get my 30 day chip, then the 6 month chip, etc. I keep those chips in my pocket everyday. It really helps to remind me that I can't drink or do drugs ever again (I know that's "future tripping," but I intend to do that). I keep my "stay sober for 24 hours" chip in my pocket every day now (I even bought a $20 version of it, that is real nice.). I know I can take it day by day. When I wake up, I shower, shave, put my cloths on, and then put the chip in my pocket. I tell myself, yes, I can stay sober for these next 24 hours. It's all about "one day at a time." I feel strong, breh. I think I can do this. I'm learning so much here (we have meetings from 8am to 9pm all day, with few breaks). I still have a while to go here at the facility, but I'm optimistic.
What made you really decide to get help?I had 2 sponsors, but they were terrible. I'm "sponsor shopping" now. Apparently there is a P11 (don't ask me what that means...
At this facility, we have AA meetings 2-3 times a day, so perhaps I can find one during those meetings, but I dunno. I know I need one ASAP though.
Oh, and I decided to check myself in. I was able to hide my drinking from my family (or so I thought), so they never pressed me. My psychiatrist on the other hand, strongly suggested I go. I took her advice and went to the best rehab hospital in Houston (supposedly it's a top 5 rehab facility in the country). I'm on day 17 in the hospital. I've been sober since 3/11/18. That's big for me. I can't wait to get my 30 day chip, then the 6 month chip, etc. I keep those chips in my pocket everyday. It really helps to remind me that I can't drink or do drugs ever again (I know that's "future tripping," but I intend to do that). I keep my "stay sober for 24 hours" chip in my pocket every day now (I even bought a $20 version of it, that is real nice.). I know I can take it day by day. When I wake up, I shower, shave, put my cloths on, and then put the chip in my pocket. I tell myself, yes, I can stay sober for these next 24 hours. It's all about "one day at a time." I feel strong, breh. I think I can do this. I'm learning so much here (we have meetings from 8am to 9pm all day, with few breaks). I still have a while to go here at the facility, but I'm optimistic.
I know you said your therapist. But everybody has their vices. What made you decide enough is enough?
Well, to be honest, I was blacking out every day. I literally woke up the next day and couldn't remember what I did the previous day. I was calling old high school friends, ex girlfriends, etc. They were all glad to hear from me, but I can't remember what we talked about (I really wish I did though). I never call old friends when I'm sober. Like I haven't talked with these people in a decade.
I started getting bad hangovers, and to cure a hangover, you drink
Then that turned into drinking all day. I never got "super drunk," just normal drunk. I could do work and shyt fine, but then I decided to cut back one day, and I got serious delirium tremens (the shakes) something serious. I decided I couldn't get off alcohol on my own, because it could cause a seizure and I might die. I then asked my psychiatrist what was the best place to go, since the last facility I went to was so terrible (I dunno if you remember, but I went to a psych ward last August for very serious suicidal thoughts and a klonopin detox. That place was terrible! It was like jail. I couldn't leave the facility until the doc said so. They literally trapped me there
). She recommended Memorial Hermann Prevention and Recovery Center, here in Houston. This shyt is like night and day. This place is so much better. The detox nurses were amazing and really cared about us. Almost all the staff, including the MDs, councilors, lecturers and nurses are all recovering addicts and alcoholics, so they really understand and give a shyt. I'm busy all day from 8am to 9pm. It's a lot of sessions, but I'm learning so much about addiction, and gaining skills to resist relapse. This place is great, breh. And my insurance is covering almost all of it (we're talking like $50K+ for being here for so long). I'm truly blessed to have access to this facility I'm turning into a new man, and I like it a lot
Well, to be honest, I was blacking out every day. I literally woke up the next day and couldn't remember what I did the previous day. I was calling old high school friends, ex girlfriends, etc. They were all glad to hear from me, but I can't remember what we talked about (I really wish I did though). I never call old friends when I'm sober. Like I haven't talked with these people in a decade.
I started getting bad hangovers, and to cure a hangover, you drink
Then that turned into drinking all day. I never got "super drunk," just normal drunk. I could do work and shyt fine, but then I decided to cut back one day, and I got serious delirium tremens (the shakes) something serious. I decided I couldn't get off alcohol on my own, because it could cause a seizure and I might die. I then asked my psychiatrist what was the best place to go, since the last facility I went to was so terrible (I dunno if you remember, but I went to a psych ward last August for very serious suicidal thoughts and a klonopin detox. That place was terrible! It was like jail. I couldn't leave the facility until the doc said so. They literally trapped me there
I'm turning into a new man, and I like it a lot
Ummm....interesting. Are you anti-social? It seems you are not a very social person.
Get well breh. Glad you decided to get some help. Alcohol addiction is fukked. Couple family members of mine drunk themselves into an early grave. I worry I drink too much myself sometimes.Well, to be honest, I was blacking out every day. I literally woke up the next day and couldn't remember what I did the previous day. I was calling old high school friends, ex girlfriends, etc. They were all glad to hear from me, but I can't remember what we talked about (I really wish I did though). I never call old friends when I'm sober. Like I haven't talked with these people in a decade.
I started getting bad hangovers, and to cure a hangover, you drink
Then that turned into drinking all day. I never got "super drunk," just normal drunk. I could do work and shyt fine, but then I decided to cut back one day, and I got serious delirium tremens (the shakes) something serious. I decided I couldn't get off alcohol on my own, because it could cause a seizure and I might die. I then asked my psychiatrist what was the best place to go, since the last facility I went to was so terrible (I dunno if you remember, but I went to a psych ward last August for very serious suicidal thoughts and a klonopin detox. That place was terrible! It was like jail. I couldn't leave the facility until the doc said so. They literally trapped me there
I'm turning into a new man, and I like it a lot
Hope talking about it here helps you. Good luck.
Good luck to @Ciggavelli
I never drink or smoke, but have heard how hard it is to quit a habit like this.
I never drink or smoke, but have heard how hard it is to quit a habit like this.
Get well soon fam, I lurk this forum alot, we appreciate your input 
Glad you got something to take you away from all this even if for at a few hours at a time.
Far Cry 5 is pretty dope so far, what site do you go for for reviews? I can post up some text articles for any of them games if you need.
Yup, I am very anti-social...
I much prefer being by myself. Strangely, I'm being very social here at the facility. I'm around people like me though. We all have a common issue (drug/alcohol abuse and good jobs and multiple advanced degrees [I'm in a special sub-group for professionals and executives; like of the 150 people here, only 10 are in my group, and we all either have MDs, PhDs, or JDs]).Thanks, breh
Glad you got something to take you away from all this even if for at a few hours at a time.
Far Cry 5 is pretty dope so far, what site do you go for for reviews? I can post up some text articles for any of them games if you need.
Thanks, man
I usually use metacritic. Every gaming site I go to is blocked here (I learned that apparently they sometimes treat people who are addicted to video games, so that's why they're all blocked
)Gamespot and IGN are my go to sites usually. If you could copy and paste a review for Far Cry 5, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks for offering to help out. If there are any other hot games that have come out in the last 18 days (day 17 of being sober
), please let me know (and if you could copy and paste a review for them on here too, I'd really appreciate it. I have all the consoles and a gaming PC, so whatever is hot and getting good reviews, I can play)Thanks again