Brother the deal is too real. I just got put in charge of a tutoring program at one of the worst schools in our city. Seven year olds getting sent to alternative schools. Dopefiend moms coming to pick the kids up. Lockdowns because of local shootouts.
I was supposed to have 6-8 kids. Yesterday I had 18. We got kicked out of a classroom and they got us in the teachers' lunchroom with 9 chairs.
You had one cuss at you yet? There's a special kind of hate that boils up in you but then you realize their whole life ain't been shyt and that's how they've been taught to respond.
We tell them we love them and that we act like family in our program. The kids are expected to show love to their family and anything else gets the boot. That means no distracting others or gassing someone or any bullshyt like that. A friend who works at another shyt school tells me she will never be the first one to let go of a hug since that's the only affection they might get all day. She also dresses VERY well since she might be the only well dressed black person they see all week. I do the same.
All it takes is one bad one to screw up the whole room. Don't feel guilty about dropping the hammer and kicking someone to the principal.