I think I'm clinically depressed...I want to end it

[Couth]

idk if your watching this thread anymore but ignore the dumbasses who say man up and shyt.

your clearly bipolar. theres no way to "think" through this. the only people who think that dont know shyt, same people who say theres no biological basis in homosexuality, ignorant to science. What i advise is two things, first yes seek counseling but more importantly link up with someone you know/love and just tell them shyts not going well, i pray to god you have a family you can rely on. The only way to make it through this is support, your not going to always be able to support yourself

Yup hes clearly bipolar. He should go get on some pills so he can pay to fix his chemical imbalance huh?

Shut your ass up

 

[Theraflu]

OP people very close to me have battled and gotten better from depression. I'd share more but as I've learned in @*L*E*G*A*C*Y* case you can't share shyt on here anymore without people turning it into jokes.

Be well.

 

[CakeEater]

i feel the same way, now that i can't post threads anymore on the coli

 

[kevm3]

A large part of depression in many cases results from your internal mental dialogue. I know it becaues I went through it, and it's easy to get into a zone where you are constantly thinking self-defeating thoughts. One negative thought causes you to feel bad, and then you think another one, and continue to feel bad, and so on and so forth until it's a cycle of self-defeating thoughts constantly making you feel bad. You have to shatter those negative thoughts in your mind by thinking positivity, and this will require internal repetition. Sometimes you simply have to force yourself to think, "Things will get better" over and over. You have to repeat it in your mind. Every time a negative thought pops up, think, "Things will get better."

A fantastic person to read about is Viktor Frankl, who created logotherapy. He was a Jew in a concentration camp, and he described how he dealt with such tough situations.

“Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.”
― Viktor E. Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning
http://www.goodreads.com/work/quote...n-ein-psychologe-erlebt-das-konzentrationslag

His book, "Man's Search for Meaning" is an excellent read and will change your mindset.

www.amazon.com/Mans-Search-Meaning-Viktor-Frankl/dp/080701429X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1406450450&sr=8-1&keywords=viktor+frankl+man%27s+search+for+meaning

 

[TKOK]

go talk to a therapist/doctor. they are trained for your very situation.

 

[TrifeGod]

If people say if God calls on you and it's nothing you can do to stop his call. What if this is one of his ways

 

[Theraflu]

Depression like other mental disorders has a stigma. People are scared to admit to it or seek help because they don't want to be seen as weak.


It's a vicious cycle because without some form of treatment it just gets worse.


Then people like OP open up and are given TERRIBLE advice. Smoking weed can make depression even worse and also lead to anxiety.


People saying man up makes the person feel weak or delude themselves into thinking they can beat it with will power.


Thing is depression literally rewires the way your brain processes information.


Most people don't know that or care to know. A depressed brain literally filters your days information just to re-enforce the depression. They could hear 99 compliments in a day and 1 insult and the ONLY thing they will remember is the insult. It's not the persons fault. They arent being negative, their brain is doing it to them.



Often times the people too scared to talk about it in real life will try to online. So posters making rude comments need to chill. Depressed people are basically walking dynamite and one heartless comment cantrigger can cause them to harm themself.

The only thing I've personally seen that worked was :

Specific therapy targeted at mood regulation and distress control. People with depression can't cope with things the way 'normal' people can and those little skills help them.

MEDICATION: if a persons chemical imbalance is truly off, something must be administered to alter it.

Various serotonin boosting activities such as exercise.

Vitamin B3 and fish oil is okay too for additional supplementation.

Good diet and better sleep. never underestimate the power of sleeping at the same time everyday for 7-10 hours. People with depression tend to over or under sleep, it's crucial they follow a strict sleeping cycle.

These things will help and in some cases relieve the symptoms but as you said when mental illness becomes apparent it never fully 'goes away'.

A person can be fine for some years then one day begin slipping away again...,,,for many it's a life long battle.

 

[mtu wa chuma]

It's like I'm happy one minute and then I'm sad the next, I hate working at my job,it's like I'm thankful for having a job but it doesn't make me happy..a feeling of dread..or a state of melancholy is what one might call it comes over me when it's time to go to work. I feel like it's always. Bills bills bills and I never have money to spend on myself and I have a newborn so it makes it worse. Don't get me wrong I love my baby girl like no other and wouldn't change a thing,it's just that I want to provide more for her. I'm enrolled in school now entering my 3rd semester but I feel like it's not taking off. I just feel stuck and it's becoming unbearable. I feel enslaved by bills and HAVING TO WORK.

Why did you have a daughter knowing what your financial situation was like? Now you're even more trapped.

 

[BantuKnotz99]

To everyone,sorry if I don't reply individually but that man up shyt is redundant because In my case I hear it a lot,theoritically speaking I am doing what I am suppose to be doing..providing for my child n household. I came to this site because I like the feedback I get from people of different backgrounds..creeds n such but to turn my situation into a joke is highly absurd.. N quite disturbing to "wanna see" someone commit that. I understand what you all are saying and I indeed need some help..maybe medically but I wanna try to conquer this myself with the help of my loved ones, I've talked to my grandmother soooo many times n she tells me the same thing that everything will be alright ,you can't focus on what some else is doing,you have to get shyt done yourself". My girl's mom thinks I need pills but I've seen what those pills do n I don't wanna fukk up a ALREADY fukked up nervous system. I really think you guys for your words of encouragement and I'm going to try to find a different job environment that better suits me. But if I feel the need to shed tears then shed there will be. Providing for my daughter is my main goal

 

[Dominic Brehetto]

The only thing I've personally seen that worked was :

Specific therapy targeted at mood regulation and distress control. People with depression can't cope with things the way 'normal' people can and those little skills help them.

MEDICATION: if a persons chemical imbalance is truly off, something must be administered to alter it.

Various serotonin boosting activities such as exercise.

Vitamin B3 and fish oil is okay too for additional supplementation.

Good diet and better sleep. never underestimate the power of sleeping at the same time everyday for 7-10 hours. People with depression tend to over or under sleep, it's crucial they follow a strict sleeping cycle.

These things will help and in some cases relieve the symptoms but as you said when mental illness becomes apparent it never fully 'goes away'.

A person can be fine for some years then one day begin slipping away again...,,,for many it's a life long battle.

True. Diet, excerscise and sleep do help.



But it's a battle.


I know because I've had depression since I was an early teen. I'm 29 now.



I've had depressive episodes that lasted months at a time. Therapy, pills nothing helps sometimes.



Personally I'd never commit suicide. But I will never see it as a cowardly or selfish act. Depression can beat you to your knees and make you despise being alive. I've had times in my life where I couldn't leave my bed, paralyzed by depression. Where Ii couldnt feel enjoyment in anything. That's why I'll never see it as selfish for someone taking their life. Because I know if I didn't have a strong support system with my friends who understand who I am that I might have done it just to escape the burden of relentess mental pain.


The only way to fight is be oopen about it with friends and family. Seek therapy, someone you can talk to is vital. Because those times when your brain is telling you to end your suffering you need An outside voice to help you the light that through it all life can be a beautiful thing.



And OP stay away from drugs. I went through that rabbit hole and the answers you need wont be found there.

 

[BantuKnotz99]

Why did you have a daughter knowing what your financial situation was like? Now you're even more trapped.

Generally speaking how would you that I was financially fukked up with a child..how you know if I JUST NOW fell on hard times. This isn't a matter of being trapped..

 

[mtu wa chuma]

Ignorant ass nikka. You have some good moments here on thecoli but there's times u just ignant. Don't ever impose your beliefs on someone with their faith.

You calling him ignorant and yet you believe God exists?

 

[ryshy]

Yup hes clearly bipolar. He should go get on some pills so he can pay to fix his chemical imbalance huh?

Shut your ass up

yea because it fukking works

 

[dBoyFresh*212]

I am clinically depressed and have been prescribed mad meds before for it including Prozac and the other famous one I can't think of right now for some reason SSRI's (anti depressants) build up in your body before it kicks in this way u don't get addicted . This is why I stopped taking it it takes like 2 or 3 months before it even works I just started self medicating by day 3 fukk waiting I want to feel nice asap.

But seriously I kno how bad it is I have depression and anxiety disorder I can't go to sleep at night sober. If I try to then my head is racing thoughts like back n forth and I'm up all night it's like fukkin torture for real.

I'm not saying it's good but I found the "medications" of my choice abs I sleep great every night. Now my problem is staying sober . fukking life b

 

[Broke Wave]

If you wanna make money my dude don't kill yourself, just Wake Up Now.