I think I'm clinically depressed...I want to end it

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I learned that the hard way..."nobody really cares" I just want this depression shyt gone. I've prayed about it and God has helped me but then it's like I find myself in the same o senerio. It's like with bills,once I play catchup...I feel like I'm going to be playing it constantly. And I do she's tears at times,nobody sees it..but I feel like sometimes I need to let my emotions out in order to feel better.


Get some professional help bro. You are going to have to make some major sacrifices to get back in control of your life. I'd say start putting your body and mind before everything.
 

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Learn to embrace the small things in life. My homeboy is 27---no job, no whip, fake Jordans on his feet, mom in poor health, yet he still keeps a smile on his face. Like Young Jeezy said "fukk you 'plainin' 'bout? It ain't like you got cancer."
 
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medication might help, but there are side effects. i'm on prozac & 2 other meds for depression/ocd, and it helped me realize just how depressed i was. cause i figured i had typical mood swings like the average person, but it was a lil more serious & i was having suicidal ideations like you. you should probably discuss it with a doctor or go to a mental health clinic.
 

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Your daughter needs you, NEEDS you. Nothing else matters. Please go get help, its good you realize you have a problem. If money in an issue they have free counseling and help available. What state are you in? If you tell me I will take time to link you to programs.

Remember everything is temporarily, even feelings of depression. There are thing you can do to better your life work towards those and in a year or more you can look back on this stage an realize it was just a moment in a whole life. She needs you.
 

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Learn to embrace the small things in life. My homeboy is 27---no job, no whip, fake Jordans on his feet, mom in poor health, yet he still keeps a smile on his face. Like Young Jeezy said "fukk you 'plainin' 'bout? It ain't like you got cancer."

go to a childrens hospital or homeless shelter

little kids dying still smiling and ish.

life could always be worse.

Meds are horrible, and when you weeze off them they are horrible just as well.
 

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Pretty sad it's 2014 and people still don't understand things like depression. For some people it's a lifelong battle, plain and simple. I read all these ignorant replies in here and I'm repulsed.


Someone with depression/chemical imbalance can't just "man up" and it doesnt juat disappear through religion or some shyt.



Real depression changes the way your brain functions. And modern medicine can assist but there is no cure. None.


We are on the internet with the worlds information at our fingertips and people choose to be ignorant.
 

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Definitely need to seek professional help. They also have mental health boards available that enables you to chat with others who have been down that road and will take your situation seriously. You've gotten some good to great advice in this thread, but it's still littered with too many idiots that struggle with the concept that nobody on this Earth cares about their views on suicide or religion, but you're going to get these in every mental health thread here, so your best bet is finding an alternative board to discuss this or consult a therapist. Best of luck to you.
 

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you best MAN the fukk up breh you got a babygirl...cant have her daddy going out like a punk because life got too hard and you have mood swings.

this is like the worst advice ever you can give to someone with depression.

anyways
@DaIpod2012 you should try and find a local psychiatrist and therapist and get some help.
 

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Da fukk? Hustle harder bro. If you're not happy with where you're at in life change something so that you are happy. If you play a sport go play it everyday. If you don't play a sport start jogging anyway.

Start putting yourself in a position to work a better job. Go to school if you need to. Make moves and get a better job or just get ahead. Don't sit around and cry about how you don't get money breh. Life doesn't work that way. Nobody gives a fukk if you eat or not. In fact most people don't want you to eat. Cuz the more you eat the less there is for them to get. You're solo. Make a plan, stick to the plan, focus on you and the plan.

Watch that depression shyt dissapear

another person who doesn't understand mental illness.

stop giving advice, seriously.. it's useless and you're not a fukking psychiatrist or doctor.

ole "depression will go away, you just gotta go out there and life is what you make it" clown. DEPRESSION IS NEVER CURED. IT DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY. and trying to fixing things on the outside is pointless unless you go and fix shyt thats "wrong" on the inside. yes, things might be better for us, for a bit.. but then inevitably we fall right back, regardless of how good things are going on the outside.

your types are the worst and you don't even realize how your words do more harm than good.
unless you've experienced chronic depression or mental illness, or have done research on it.. stop trying to give advice. because your advice is trash and SUCKS.

Pretty sad it's 2014 and people still don't understand things like depression. For some people it's a lifelong battle, plain and simple. I read all these ignorant replies in here and I'm repulsed.


Someone with depression/chemical imbalance can't just "man up" and it doesnt juat disappear through religion or some shyt.



Real depression changes the way your brain functions. And modern medicine can assist but there is no cure. None.


We are on the internet with the worlds information at our fingertips and people choose to be ignorant.

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Depression like other mental disorders has a stigma. People are scared to admit to it or seek help because they don't want to be seen as weak.


It's a vicious cycle because without some form of treatment it just gets worse.


Then people like OP open up and are given TERRIBLE advice. Smoking weed can make depression even worse and also lead to anxiety.


People saying man up makes the person feel weak or delude themselves into thinking they can beat it with will power.


Thing is depression literally rewires the way your brain processes information.


Most people don't know that or care to know. A depressed brain literally filters your days information just to re-enforce the depression. They could hear 99 compliments in a day and 1 insult and the ONLY thing they will remember is the insult. It's not the persons fault. They arent being negative, their brain is doing it to them.



Often times the people too scared to talk about it in real life will try to online. So posters making rude comments need to chill. Depressed people are basically walking dynamite and one heartless comment cantrigger can cause them to harm themself.

so fukking true. great posts in this thread, dude.. really.

a compliment to me is basically an insult.

i hate when im being deprecating to myself like getting ready and looking in the mirror and say "wow, i look like shyt" or "im so ugly" and my mom says something like "omg dani, no you don't..i wish i was as skinny as you etc etc blah fukking blah blah"

because the way i process it is not as compliment, at all. i don't think as compliments as compliments, i mentally process them as insults like i think "no, you're only saying that because youre my mother and you're supposed to say things like that to try and make me feel better".

last week or so some guy i "know" from highschool messaged me on facebook and was like "is this the Dani i went to school with? Wow, you're looking really good these days, we should hang out sometime" and I thought "oh.. these days?" cause THOSE days in highschool when you were popular, i was ugly.. but now you're out of high school and not a popular jock and gained 80 pounds im good enough for you to talk to now?"
 

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Thoughts:

- this is normal when you have a baby, especially if you "weren't ready" for them.

- it's one thing if your current job is bringing you down, but dig - you aren't gonna be happy "working" anywhere.
Your next job will have it's own problems. I say that not to further discourage you, but to point out that maybe
the job is not really what's wrong, but the idea that maybe you thought you'd be at a different point at this time in your life,
as some have mentioned. If so - there's nothing you can do about that, mayne. Don't go backward - go forward.
If you wanna find something else, figure out what your strengths are and try to find something where you can use them.
But while you're at your current job, WORK THE CHIT OUT OF THAT JOB, cuzz. People may not notice if you're depressed,
but they do notice hard work, so you never know what opportunities may open up...


- also, figure out what you're in school for. For example, some folks are just going to school because everybody goes to school.
But what classes are you taking? I say that because...well, i'll illustrate. If you do some accounting somewhere, most places
only care that when you went to school, you took 9-12 credit hours of accounting, knamtalmbat? You gotta focus on what you're
in school to do, instead of just taking the classes you "need" to get a piece of paper.


- you have to take time out to do something fun for yourself. You HAVE to. Some have mentioned working out in here.
That's all well and good, but with all the stuff you got going on right now that just might make you (more) tired. Find a hobby
that will make you excited and give your brain stimulation. A healthy mind is as important as a healthy body...


...matter of fact - find something you can do with your daughter.

- iono what your relationship is with your Babeh Mama, but if it's halfway decent you gotta have this talk with her, too.
(sidebar: I said this presuming it wasn't your wife. Sorry if she is your wife. It's kinda fucced up when we just assume
nobody is married anymore when they have their kids now, but it is what it is...) She can be an ally here, because she
wants you to do what you can for y'alls daughter as well. If she knows how you're feeling here and she's a down-ass broad,
she's gonna do what she can to help out, too.


Bottom line: maybe you are "clinically" depressed, I don't know. But before you go throwing down pills,
consider some things like these, that can assess what you can do right now to improve your situation.
 
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