Thoughts:
- this is normal when you have a baby, especially if you "weren't ready" for them.
- it's one thing if your current job is bringing you down, but dig - you aren't gonna be happy "working" anywhere.
Your next job will have it's own problems. I say that not to further discourage you, but to point out that maybe
the job is not really what's wrong, but the idea that maybe you thought you'd be at a different point at this time in your life,
as some have mentioned. If so - there's nothing you can do about that, mayne. Don't go backward - go forward.
If you wanna find something else, figure out what your strengths are and try to find something where you can use them.
But while you're at your current job, WORK THE CHIT OUT OF THAT JOB, cuzz. People may not notice if you're depressed,
but they do notice hard work, so you never know what opportunities may open up...
- also, figure out what you're in school for. For example, some folks are just going to school because everybody goes to school.
But what classes are you taking? I say that because...well, i'll illustrate. If you do some accounting somewhere, most places
only care that when you went to school, you took 9-12 credit hours of accounting, knamtalmbat? You gotta focus on what you're
in school to do, instead of just taking the classes you "need" to get a piece of paper.
- you have to take time out to do something fun for yourself. You HAVE to. Some have mentioned working out in here.
That's all well and good, but with all the stuff you got going on right now that just might make you (more) tired. Find a hobby
that will make you excited and give your brain stimulation. A healthy mind is as important as a healthy body...
...matter of fact - find something you can do with your daughter.
- iono what your relationship is with your Babeh Mama, but if it's halfway decent you gotta have this talk with her, too.
(sidebar: I said this presuming it wasn't your wife. Sorry if she is your wife. It's kinda fucced up when we just assume
nobody is married anymore when they have their kids now, but it is what it is...) She can be an ally here, because she
wants you to do what you can for y'alls daughter as well. If she knows how you're feeling here and she's a down-ass broad,
she's gonna do what she can to help out, too.
Bottom line: maybe you are "clinically" depressed, I don't know. But before you go throwing down pills,
consider some things like these, that can assess what you can do right now to improve your situation.