I think in your case you just haven’t met the right one. You seem like a good breh. I wish I could help, I hate that you’ve had some bad experiences with some bw. I promise you we all aren’t like that though. I’ve never tried to clown or embarrass a breh. I’m always careful about that. I know how much courage it takes to approach. Some bw are picky and whatnot, but there are those that would love a breh like you. From what you’ve posted, brehettes thatve worked with you are interested. I feel like maybe dating is like finding a job. You don’t give up if your unemployed you keep putting those applications in, no matter how many interviews you tank or rejection emails you get. You don’t give up, because eventually the right job is going to come right on time. That’s what I would say. Keep putting yourself out there. Don’t take rejection personal. And if you want the counselor I told you about or to ever talk inbox me.