My grandmother passed and I'm having trouble mourning.

[JayStarwind]

My grandma was my second mother. I could talk to her about anything, she told me all kinds of stories from back in the day (was locked up with MLK), she taught me how to do yardwork, was always around, raised me for a while, etc. She was a very important part of my life. We found out she had cancer a little over a month ago, and her health rapidly started declining shortly after. I broke down multiple times while she was in the hospital, the worst when she stopped communicating and became delirious towards the end. The thought of how she must have felt when we left after visiting will forever bother me.

The thing is I haven't felt much since she passed. I sat in the room where her body laid for hours and could only stare. I couldn't sleep that same night; whenever I closed my eyes I saw the weirdest things. Since then I've thought about her a few times but have felt zilch. Idk if it's because it happened so quickly or because I haven't fully accepted the fact that she's gone--it still doesn't feel real.

Anyone have a similar experience? How did you cope?

 

[010101]

i just accepted there is no way to change the circumstances*

 

[MR. SNIFLES]

YOU JUST HAVEN'T HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO SOAK IT IN. SOMETIMES IT COMES AFTER THE FUNERAL WHEN EVERYBODY IS GONE AND YOU HAVE AN URGE TO SPEAK TO THAT PERSON. REALITY SETS IN AND YOU'LL GRIEVE.

IT DOESN'T HAPPEN THE SAME WAY EVERY TIME. GOOD LUCK TO YOU.

 

[NoCones]

I watched my great grandma deteriorate over 15 years from alzheimers.
I know for a fact me, my bro and ma did most of our grieving while she was living which sounds like what youve been doing.
With older people, in general, the idea of losing them is way more real than with children, so you're more prepared.

You'll be fine

 

[Ya' Cousin Cleon]

When it hits it's gonna hit breh

first and foremost I'm sorry for yo loss

Everything she told you, keep in mind, every lesson

pass it on to the next generation or those in your circle

that's how you keep her spirit (if you believe in that) alive.

 

[Fletch]

Grieving and mourning is different for everyone. It’s not linear and there’s no timetable or “right way” to do it. However you’re feeling right now is Ok.

 

[Ya Sinning Mane]

Sometimes shyt hit u harder late down the road.

my prayers and condolences are with u

 

[Ethnic Vagina Finder]

My grandma was my second mother. I could talk to her about anything, she told me all kinds of stories from back in the day (was locked up with MLK), she taught me how to do yardwork, was always around, raised me for a while, etc. She was a very important part of my life. We found out she had cancer a little over a month ago, and her health rapidly started declining shortly after. I broke down multiple times while she was in the hospital, the worst when she stopped communicating and became delirious towards the end. The thought of how she must have felt when we left after visiting will forever bother me.

The thing is I haven't felt much since she passed. I sat in the room where her body laid for hours and could only stare. I couldn't sleep that same night; whenever I closed my eyes I saw the weirdest things. Since then I've thought about her a few times but have felt zilch. Idk if it's because it happened so quickly or because I haven't fully accepted the fact that she's gone--it still doesn't feel real.

Anyone have a similar experience? How did you cope?

a piece of her still lives on through you.

now it’s up to you to help carry on her legacy.

 

[Dad]

We all grieve differently, breh.

peace & light

 

[Alex Cross]

Damn.

Condolences and when it hits…it’s gonna be rough.

Praying for you my brother. I know that feeling.

 

[Neo. The Only. The One.]

I lost my great grandmother and my granddad within 3 months of each other back in 2016. I felt like my world was ending. Me and my granddad were extremely close. I was close with him the entire time I was growing up and as a grown man. My great grandma and I became extremely close when I got older. I could talk to her about anything, talked about the love of my life to her and she would give me advice. I was very close to them both. When my great grandma was close to passing, I was in denial. I didn't believe that she was close to the end. I didn't want to believe it. I was in denial to the very end. And it really made me feel bad because if I had believed it, I would have spent more time with her at the end.


So anyway it drove me to the brink when I lost them both. I felt like I was losing my grip a little bit.

It took me years to recover and sometimes now when I think about them both, the grief hits me. The only thing I can tell you is that it gets easier to deal with over time. I still grieve hard but it gets easier over time.

 

[Dafunkdoc_Unlimited]

Lost mine when I was 8 years old. Didn't make sense, then.​

You'll be alright.​

 

[Smokin Rider]

I was this same way when my grandfather died. Took me about a week for it to hit me, just felt numb while everyone else was crying

 

[SleezyBigSlim]

We just lost my wife's grandmother Friday and I'm going to tell you what I told her. Your grandparents will always be with you, my grandmother passed in 2011 and I still feel her presence, my grandfather passed back in 2003 and came to me in a dream he said everything was going to be ok. I didnt know what he meant because my life was great at the time well a few months after that I went through a divorce and my crib burned down. My grand daddy was looking out for me from the grave and I made it through it because he warned me

 

[Clayton Endicott]

My condolences. Same thing happened with grandfather. He's been gone six years and I still haven't grieved for him. It has nothing to do with him. I learned so much from him, and even inherited some traits from him. Next to my dad, he's the man that I loved, admired and respected the most. I miss him like a motherfukker, but I haven't mourned him and that bothers me sometimes. Maybe I'm still in shock because it happened so suddenly.