I HATE to to do this to Brad Jordan, but...these lines make NO sense unless words mean different things in Houston.
Scarface(the real GOAT).....Mind Playing Tricks on Me....his second verse
Often drift when I drive/
having fatal thoughts of suicide/
bang and get it over with/
then I'm worry free but that's bullshyt/
I got a little boy to look after/
and if I die then my child will be a b*stard/
????????????????????????
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Also
Scarface "A Minute To Pray and a Second to Die"
He had a baby that he couldn't raise
And she will never see her father again, cause he's in a grave
Hey yo, let's think about it, nilla
"My daddy was a dopeman, so I'mma be a dope dealer" (said by his daughter)
How will the family explain it?
"
My daughter had a baby for a 'caine head!"(said by his girl's father)
???????
So was the dead man a dealer or a drug user?
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Later in the same song
He ain't around to see her walk
Dry her eyes when she cries, pick her up when she falls
Just the thought of a kid livin foul fukks me up
When his girl has to raise a
b*stard child
It gets deeper, he used to punch her and beat her
????????? wtf....
b*stard means orphan in Houston??????