ah ok, so you're living like the American Dream then, in your parents eyes at least?
Klaus lol, funny name. How did you even get into this kind of work.
Do you have plans of moving up that corporate ladder or are you looking to move elsewhere? Do you even like your job?
What did she say your problem was? What's her problem?
True that, way to be different. My friend makes music and he thinks he has to imitate all of these dudes and take some bit of their style to hit mainstream, I'm like "dude just be yourself" but idk, perhaps I could be wrong. I think I'm right though, being true to yourself is right. righteous.
Yeah that's true. Weird how history erased Ali's presence and then brought him back, most people who say RIP to Ali have never seen him fight before, I hate how they idolize black people who fought against the system and turn them into pop stars. But I guess sometimes it's like are they 'black' per se, or were they dreamers who had a dream who others were trying to hold back? Do we not all go through something similar? I guess color doesn't matter much, it's our country's messed up political stances. Sick fukks. excuse me.
Word that's true! I agree with you! It's like this job requires me to be moreeeeeeeeee smiley and friendly, even though I'm both I'm still quite introverted so I'm working on approaching people and smiling. Which is developing another part of me. I just have to find patience for those around me, some people can be such drama or so rude, it really bothers me!
I feel you. But do you feel like you're successful?
Yeah, that's true. It's weird because I am learning to actually get to know women, I don't really look at them as pieces of meat anymore. Society really has messed people up that way, but I've been in many situations where we share intimacy so quickly. While reading that Mike Tyson autobio he talks about having sex with a lot of women, I've never that much sex, but I can see the point that he's trying to make. He said "I still don't know what's important about sex. Is it the pleasure part or the actual intimacy?". I think that's a good question to ask, because a lot of the times the women I sexed even if it were random I wanted the intimacy itself rather than the sex. It was the companionship and when it was sex with a woman I didn't care for really, I felt like Mike did, "hollow". But yeah, I want a friend.
Why do you tell me to keep it casual with her?
I feel you on that, they're really at an abundance, same with men but at least you have standards. How did you meet this woman that you're dealing with now?
No I cannot lol, she's got skills especially to be noticed in China out of all places. Considering how big that place is.
That's a cool tune, iont really listen to him but I've heard of him. I listened to the rest of that tape and it was real smooth and cool tbh.
Cool man, I hope you're doing great. Hopefully it's a safe trip, don't drink the water lol.
Thank you for that reminder, phew sometimes I can be quite forgetful.
man the coli has become an abysmal manufacturer. Even the HL threads seem quite negative to me, where's the inspirational ish.
Love me some Japanese Hip Hop
Anyway breh, I hope all is good, take it easy, no rush. Live, love, learn. Repeaaaaaaaat
My siblings and I definitely have had it farrrrrrr easier than my parents ever did. But when I think about it, I haven't put anywhere NEAR as much work in life as they did. My parents came from extremely poor families in Ecuador. By the time they were 30 they moved all over Ecuador and finally came to the U.S. They didn't know any English, but were navigating through NEW YORK CITY with several kids. Dunno anyone fukking braver than them.
I was doing a Digital Marketing training internship, at the end of it they sent us to corporate companies, I got sent to FCB. Funny thing is, I'm not doing any Digital Marketing work here. At first I was pissed, felt like I did all that training for nothing. Especially cause I got interviewed to work at Facebook. I felt like I was deserving, but they didn't pick me. Now? I'm grateful for this new Project Management role at FCB. Digital Marketing was cool and interesting or whatever, but the thought of literally staring at data all day on my laptop was not cool to me anymore. At least here, as a Digital Producer I get to set up meetings, interact and talk with many different co-workers from different departments and shyt. There's some human aspect to being a Digital Producer that I enjoy. Probably cause naturally I'm an introvert, don't talk or get close to people too often. But I
must reach out to people now. Very cool to me. Takes me out of my comfort zone and has me working on something I find important.
My girl got into Facebook. She pretty much has to stay up to date with ALL current entertainment and media. She has to be ON it. I, for the most part, do not give a fukk about trending music, news, etc. I don't even have a television in the crib. shyt would have been a hard pill to swallow if I was at Facebook. There's so many connections, possibilities, benefits at FB, but I'm so grateful to not have gone there.
Not interested in climbing up the ranks yet, still feel brand new here. Still building my foundation. My team is pretty cool, I know people from other departments that seem to have my back as well. As of now, I like FCB. It can get pretty stressful simply cause usually we're working with important clients, so if deadlines aren't met shyt gets wild. Honestly, things might change at the end of next month. If I get offered to stay I'll do it, if not, I won't be too upset about it.
Her and I just not being understanding of each other. We met at our internship. We're similar in some ways, but completely opposite in others. Her personality is very much a sunflower. Everybody knows her. Everybody wishes to hang out with her. She knows so many people. People know me too, but it's very different for me. Naturally, I just keep my distance from people not in my immediate friend circle. Dunno why, it's just the way I am. I've had the same 8 dudes in my life since I was like 9 years old or some shyt. At this point, they're my brothers now.
Dunno how else to say this without sounding like a dikk...but, I'm not your average dude. From the music I listen to, communication skills, my hobbies/interests, fashion style, etc. I really stand out without trying. So people know me and try to get cool with me. Girls see me as this mysterious dude they can't put a number on. All of these things have their pros and cons, but in short, we're very different. She wants to go to parties with me every weekend, I probably rather go to an art show or something. Watch a film. Hit up a museum. Ride around the city. I don't know, parties are cool and shyt, but I don't frequent them. She wants to always hangout with her friends and I, where I rather just us two do something together. It's probably the introvert in me. I think it's fair to say I should lighten up and go with the flow a bit more, but that has to have its limits. Can't strictly be pleasing her. What I feel has value too, if not more.
No, I do not feel successful yet. I think the only way I'll feel successful is when I'm completely independent and have a structured routine that works for me and everyone else I care for. I want to be able to incorporate the most I can into everyday. It's all about that balance. I might be striving for something a little unrealistic, but I'm sure I can have something close to it.
It's true bro. That companionship is what we search for in life. Companionship is reason why you and I are here today. My boys are dogs, they got so many women under their belts, but I've always been the dude that picks and chooses carefully. I'm very picky. Yeah, I fukk around and there, but for the most part? 95% of the time I'm with someone of substance, with some uniqueness. Over the years my boys know and acknowledge this, so they respect my game. If not, I chill alone for a while. That alone time is crucial, good things eventually come your way when you focus on yourself. Last two girls I was messing with? One was a mathematician, teaching at City college, a beautiful, vibrant and brilliant fukking lady. The other was a musician, she sang, played piano, guitar, violin, and performed in an orchestra all around NYC. Real talk.
Keeping things casual with women I think is key. I never try too hard. It definitely has cost me to lose some possibilities before, but I think its best to just keep things cool and not look needy. If you guys begin talking, do you and let her do her. Don't
pretend to be busy, you gotta actually be doing you. Women notice these things. No need to be in constant communication either. Try not to be too accessible, but not too distant either. But when ya do talk or hang out, make it worth her time by keeping things natural, real, and honest.
Track is super wavey. Chilling hard this Monday morning. Hope everyone is feeling good today! Gonna post about my trip in a few....
