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So positive in here
So positive in here


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My major is linguistics and my other major is German. And I study muay thai.
Have you ever done it before brother? Go alone, Dont be afraid, its enjoyable and you meet people. Stay in hostels, you need this time to adventure.
Lool I'm not sure, tomorrow is finals. I'm thinking should I wait for her by the door before class and let her know what it is because she might finish her final before me or something and I don't wanna rush through mine but its basically the last day I might see her before summer starts. Yeah I feel you on that, you know I think you really have to catch em on the right day. Word, I was telling my friend that, just to have some female company would be really nice. I been so caught up in grinding and I've been smoked out that I ignored everything.
That's true. How are you doing getting over lil shawty? Has she hit u or nah?
Heat>>> ima check the video out later. I gotta study for this rawtid final.
Lool I can see that, that seems like an interesting article as well. Do you ever approach your job using psychology like advertising agency's do?
Thank you, you too bruv. Lemme know how life is going. I'm glad to hear. I'll have some things to post in here as well.
Stay up everybody, fill me in on things.
Peace
1. Have I been judging myself/comparing myself to others?
Yes. But I don't compare myself to others. I think I'm better than others. I don't know if that's something I need to work on or not but I truly believe it. I compare myself to past versions of myself and also versions myself that I can envision for the future that I'm not at yet. I get frustrated when my progress doesn't go as quickly as I want it to. But the progress is happening. Sometimes I feel like I make up shyt to be annoyed by when I'm bored. Like, the chaos in me can't let myself stay in order for too long.
2. Do I tell myself positive things?
Ya, a lot. But the rest of the world seems negative. I think, "Why can't everyone just be like me?". I see people chasing money with no goals other than chase more money. I see people systematically oppress others so they can have a nicer boat. On my end, I don't know how much more I can do individually. I don't eat meat or dairy so I'm saving as many animals as I can, and saving the environment. I'm nice to people. Nothing I do negatively affects others. But it seems like 1 out of 7 billion is never going to do anything. Even if I'm one of the smarter of the 7 billion. I don't know how to reconcile physical existence and the internet. I want to escape technology but feel locked into it because of my job. I want to escape my desire for security. I want to be creative but again, the 9-5 seems to suck away a lot of my creativity. But without my 9-5 I wouldn't be able to get all the food I want, or pay for a gym membership, or go on vacation. I don't know. When I lay my life situation out in front of myself nothing seems wrong but what I FEEL day to day seems wrong. It feels like I'm wasting time.
3. Do I minimize what I feel? Is it considered in the relationships I'm a part of? (Family, friends, flings, etc)
No I'm very open about the way I feel
4. Am I solely focusing on the needs of others rather than myself?
Hell no
5. What am I trying to prove or win?
That I'm justified in thinking of myself as better than others. That I'm elitist for good reason. Validation. But after receiving that validation, have people listen to my ideas on how to better the world.
6. Blaming myself or feeling guilty for things out of my hands?
Kind of. I feel bad for being ok living off food, clothing, infrastructure etc. that was built out of the tears of poor people that risk their lives for scraps. While I'm not the one writing the checks, I feel like even being ok with it and participating in society in its current form makes me complicit in wage slaves' suffering.
7. Show yourself compassion?
I don't really understand this one. Compassion implies another person, to me.
8. Assertive with your decisions/personal opinions?
Very, to the point where I worry if I'm gonna push people away by never shutting up.
I've been to Philly, Boston, Maine, and Gilboa NY for trips in the last maybe two years. Been to Ecuador plenty of times. Never alone though. Next week my older brother and I are going to Mexico and Nicaragua to pay a friend of ours a visit. We're going to Teotihuacan to get blessed by the presence of ancient architecture. Then we're chilling in Nicaragua until the following week. Really excited, but I have to start going to places alone though. It's only natural we explore the earth man.
At work I'm a Digital Producer. We pretty much run entire projects from start to finish. We keep a schedule and host team meetings with co-workers from other departments like developers, creative, tech, UX, copy team, etc. I pretty much check up on people to make sure they're doing their work. I don't necessarily do the ads, but I make sure each tasks gets completed so that the final advertisement, app, website is finished.
She hit me up the following day, around 3AM. Apologizing like crazy, saying she was just acting impulsively, she doesn't want to lose me, blah blah. I told her straight that unless she can demonstrate to me that shes really trying for us, like, she really wants this, I'm not fully returning to things the way they were. If the arguing/not trying to understand each other continues I'm done with it all. Past few days been okay I guess, still not convinced about anything though. Still have my guard up.
I feel like vacations, or just breaks from work/school in general are super crucial. You get to breathe and look around. It helps remind me that we're just a tiny blimp in the fabric of space. We're just this small pale blue dot in the immense darkness, experiencing this moment we call life on this rock we call earth. shyt is so trippy.
Once I get back from Nicaragua I've been telling myself I'm going full throttle. Doing my routines, giving myself time to meditate, read, write, take photos more, etc. I feel like things like this usually work for me cause I treat it like a reset. Coming back to the states with a much clearer mind. I have to give myself a chance, if I don't, no one will.
Knocks so hard. Pretty picky with my hip-hop, but little homie legit surprised me. Been on repeatttt
This is nice, I need to sit down and do this.Found an old note I wrote to myself earlier this year. It was a bunch of questions to myself that I titled "Exploring Emptiness".
I remember writing these questions down in order to really understand why I was feeling the way I was. Didn't know how else to frame it but emptiness. I wanted to get to the root of it.
What would your answers look like if you wrote this down? Good time to be brutally honest with yourself. Then suggest what you should be feeling/doing about it. Making changes to some of these things may help you with your overall sense of self. It definitely helped me when I wrote everything out. Felt super relieved getting down to it and realizing some of the changes I needed to make.
1. Have I been judging myself/comparing myself to others?
2. Do I tell myself positive things?
3. Do I minimize what I feel? Is it considered in the relationships I'm a part of? (Family, friends, flings, etc)
4. Am I solely focusing on the needs of others rather than myself?
5. What am I trying to prove or win?
6. Blaming myself or feeling guilty for things out of my hands?
7. Show yourself compassion?
8. Assertive with your decisions/personal opinions?
Find a nice spot outside in the park or something. Play some nice tunes, give yourself that precious time to reflect and question how you've been maneuvering as of lately. Anyone else have other questions they feel are important send them through.
Where everyone else from Higher Learning at!? Get in this brehs! We need help with more ideas and positivity in this! Lesgo!!!
I respect youMan, my brethen excuse me for the late responses. Life gets you off track of whats positive...
Especially with the news of the killings, but still I feel like this is a homebase for that positive vibe. Like when I sit here and read y'all comments it's a good thing, because we're sitting here and saying okay there are things going on, but I can't control them outside of my world, but I'm trying to better my own world in order to better those who are in it's environments!
Anyway, I'll share what's been going on with me...
I found a new job. I was sent home from work after being there for 5 minutes because they were over staffed on a shift that I worked on. I wasn't bitter but my friend told me about his job hiring servers so I thought of it as a chance to better myself.
I've ended up at this Japanese restaurant. I'm not a server but instead an expediter. So I run food and bus tables. Jeez sometimes it seems like this restaurant industry thing is such a rat race for me. But I did start fairly early, just in december so to go from dishwasher to there I suppose it's a great accomplishment and a definite direction towards more success.
But success is another half, tranquility, stillness, inner peace and love is highly important as well.
Russian chick hit me back up on the email, told me she's going to Russia for the summer, will be back in september. I feel like Harold in Kumar. It's weird because I told my friend she would hit me back and she did. Just off an email, am I in the twilight zone? lol.
Anyway, I'm jk. It's odd but cool because really most girls be on some idk. Like I seem to be iffy about a lot of them, But maybe I'm just being the introvert that I am?
Anyway, I hope things are going good for you guys.
Oh also!
I wanted to post this just for a little bit of inspiration.
http://www.nytimes.com/2015/08/02/b...re-built-her-fortune.html?mwrsm=Facebook&_r=1
Started from the bottom now we here...