Social Anxiety/Phobia???

[Unknown Poster]

Today was the worst struggle ever and proved to me that yes i do have social anxiety.

I forced myself to go out skateboarding causw i usually help myself by doing activities i enjoy to get my mind off things and everything was an uphill struggle.

It took me 30 minutes to get dressed. All i wore was a plain white t, a pittsburgh pirates snapback, a pair of blue jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I was just adjusting my shirt because i felt it wasnt long enough. Adjusting my jeans first around the waist then below then above then below and this continued for 15 minutes.

I then mustered enough energy to leave my apartmebr. I had lunch at burger king then got on the train. Immediately as I get on the train all I wanted to do was leave. People are staring at me molesting me with their eyes. It just bothered me to the point i couldnt even enjoy the train ride. Had to take 3 trains (7, g, L) to get to my destination. The 7 couldn't of stopped at my stop soon enough.

Then the g from queens to brooklyn

I get on the train same thing. People staring at me making me uncomfortable. I just have my head down making it known i did not want to interact with anyone. A couple of stops later a bunch of cute girls start sitting around me and next to me. All i wanted them to do was get the fukk away from me. As soon as i get to my stop i just ran off the train and tried to find somewhere where nobody would bother me.

I grab the L. I cant find seat. I stand. Im alright. A seat opens. I take it. This old white guy stares at me so long and hard to the point i literally just lost it and yelled at him saying "what the fukk are you looking at? Don't be staring at me motherfukker!" and made a little scene on the train. Luckily i got to my final stop.

So that's it. Went skateboarding had fun...but it's stuff like that that makes me not want to leave my apartment what a nightmare.

 

[Reginald Noble]

I didn't really have social anxiety but I had some depression the end of freshman year of college and beginning of sophomore year. Then I became a self-absorbed a$$hole.

 

[Reginald Noble]

Oh yeah, check your nutrition you are probably deficient in Vitamin D, some B's or something else potentially like magnesium, calcium, potassium etc.

Once I got my nutrition right I was 1000% better.

 

[Mr_X]

Wrong thread.

 

[Reginald Noble]

Today was the worst struggle ever and proved to me that yes i do have social anxiety.

I forced myself to go out skateboarding causw i usually help myself by doing activities i enjoy to get my mind off things and everything was an uphill struggle.

It took me 30 minutes to get dressed. All i wore was a plain white t, a pittsburgh pirates snapback, a pair of blue jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I was just adjusting my shirt because i felt it wasnt long enough. Adjusting my jeans first around the waist then below then above then below and this continued for 15 minutes.

OCD?

I then mustered enough energy to leave my apartmebr. I had lunch at burger king then got on the train. Immediately as I get on the train all I wanted to do was leave. People are staring at me molesting me with their eyes. It just bothered me to the point i couldnt even enjoy the train ride. Had to take 3 trains (7, g, L) to get to my destination. The 7 couldn't of stopped at my stop soon enough.

7 train sucks I don't blame you breh

Then the g from queens to brooklyn

There are some pawgs on there you should check them out

I get on the train same thing. People staring at me making me uncomfortable. I just have my head down making it known i did not want to interact with anyone. A couple of stops later a bunch of cute girls start sitting around me and next to me. All i wanted them to do was get the fukk away from me. As soon as i get to my stop i just ran off the train and tried to find somewhere where nobody would bother me.

This happens to me all the time I don't know if half the nikkas in the city turned gay or what. And these bytches be jocking me too. I just close my eyes listen to my beats and tune out.

I grab the L. I cant find seat. I stand. Im alright. A seat opens. I take it. This old white guy stares at me so long and hard to the point i literally just lost it and yelled at him saying "what the fukk are you looking at? Don't be staring at me motherfukker!" and made a little scene on the train. Luckily i got to my final stop.

Just another psycho in this city you do realize once they closed the mental facilities under ghouliani all these bizzarro nikkas and CACs started showing up on the train. Don't say nothing to them but get your dukes up if necessary that is all I will say...

So that's it. Went skateboarding had fun...but it's stuff like that that makes me not want to leave my apartment what a nightmare.

The problem is NYC is whack right now dude...I was born and raised here and I don't like it no more. Half of these CACs and nikkas come out of nowhere I don't know where these fakkits come from but you are not bugging - Lot of psychos in this city and TBH i feel it's worse than my daddy era cause at least you know nikkas was on crack and shyt. I don't know what these mother fukkers be on half the time I heard there is a new meth epidemic in LES spreading out though.

Winter coming soon so that gonna send a lot of these dudes indoors or under a bridge somewhere thank god. Just keep your nose clean, your head high and focus on making bread and getting out of here whenever possible.

 

[Audemar]

@1984 I'll say this at least: there are more people than you'd believe (quite a few on this site too) who suffer from the same anxiety related issues. Some are just better at concealing it or pushing through it.

 

[Unknown Poster]

@1984 I'll say this at least: there are more people than you'd believe (quite a few on this site too) who suffer from the same anxiety related issues. Some are just better at concealing it or pushing through it.

Word. I'm seeking treatment for this cause it sucks. I never used to feel like this. I used to be more outgoing not afraid to talk to women not afraid to talk to people but now more and more the actions of other people around me have made me not want to be around people but i know i can't just stay in my apartment and not leave.

Like this is scary and it comes out of nowhere even when i feel it's not a problem.

 

[TRFG]

Today was the worst struggle ever and proved to me that yes i do have social anxiety.

I forced myself to go out skateboarding causw i usually help myself by doing activities i enjoy to get my mind off things and everything was an uphill struggle.

It took me 30 minutes to get dressed. All i wore was a plain white t, a pittsburgh pirates snapback, a pair of blue jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I was just adjusting my shirt because i felt it wasnt long enough. Adjusting my jeans first around the waist then below then above then below and this continued for 15 minutes.

I then mustered enough energy to leave my apartmebr. I had lunch at burger king then got on the train. Immediately as I get on the train all I wanted to do was leave. People are staring at me molesting me with their eyes. It just bothered me to the point i couldnt even enjoy the train ride. Had to take 3 trains (7, g, L) to get to my destination. The 7 couldn't of stopped at my stop soon enough.

Then the g from queens to brooklyn

I get on the train same thing. People staring at me making me uncomfortable. I just have my head down making it known i did not want to interact with anyone. A couple of stops later a bunch of cute girls start sitting around me and next to me. All i wanted them to do was get the fukk away from me. As soon as i get to my stop i just ran off the train and tried to find somewhere where nobody would bother me.

I grab the L. I cant find seat. I stand. Im alright. A seat opens. I take it. This old white guy stares at me so long and hard to the point i literally just lost it and yelled at him saying "what the fukk are you looking at? Don't be staring at me motherfukker!" and made a little scene on the train. Luckily i got to my final stop.

So that's it. Went skateboarding had fun...but it's stuff like that that makes me not want to leave my apartment what a nightmare.

OH shyt, you're @*L*E*G*A*C*Y*

 

[Larry Lobster]

People are staring at me molesting me with their eyes.

Were they looking at you like this

or like this

 

[Larry Lobster]

OH shyt, you're @*L*E*G*A*C*Y*

Damn you're late son.

 

[TRFG]

Were they looking at you like this

or like this

you need to add a cac shaq smilie

 

[OC's finest]

i have a successful job that requires public speaking and interaction

and i have popular friends that go out a lot in LA party scene

and a gf thats very social


and i got a fukin severe panic disorder/social anxiety/mild depression


its starting to cripple my life,

when i go out sometimes in public i start to get light headed and feel like ima feint or pass out, and i can feel my heart rate spike. i wear a fit bit that tracks my heart. when im gettin a panic attack and anxiety, my heart rate goes from a standing 75 to like 130-140


no wonder im feeling sick and like ima feint, my heart is gong absolutely insane


its crippling my social life, affecting my relationships, and limiting my ability to travel.


im unable to leave anywhere outside my city



and i got a wedding in fukin thailand next year, and i gotta go to dallas to visit a friend next year as well




shyts a year away and im already like


i might fukin get a heart attack fo real from this anxiety shyt

 

[Larry Lobster]

i have a successful job that requires public speaking and interaction

and i have popular friends that go out a lot in LA party scene

and a gf thats very social


and i got a fukin severe panic disorder/social anxiety/mild depression


its starting to cripple my life,

when i go out sometimes in public i start to get light headed and feel like ima feint or pass out, and i can feel my heart rate spike. i wear a fit bit that tracks my heart. when im gettin a panic attack and anxiety, my heart rate goes from a standing 75 to like 130-140


no wonder im feeling sick and like ima feint, my heart is gong absolutely insane


its crippling my social life, affecting my relationships, and limiting my ability to travel.


im unable to leave anywhere outside my city



and i got a wedding in fukin thailand next year, and i gotta go to dallas to visit a friend next year as well




shyts a year away and im already like


i might fukin get a heart attack fo real from this anxiety shyt

How do you have a girlfriend in the first place?

 

[OC's finest]

How do you have a girlfriend in the first place?

im a good lookin mofo, and i always been good wid women in life



my ladies actually really understanding of my situation right now. shes wifey status



this shyt is really affecting my life tho. i went to see the doc the other day cuz it got super bad.

its been a problem most my life, but for the past year or so, its been like crippling bad. and coincidentally, about a year ago is when i popped a few mollys at a few music festivals.




i think that shyt fried my brains bruh. i think it permanently fuked up my brain chemicals and seratonins n shyts




mentally unstable ppl shouldnt take drugs bruhs

 

[George's Dilemma]

@1984 I'll say this at least: there are more people than you'd believe (quite a few on this site too) who suffer from the same anxiety related issues. Some are just better at concealing it or pushing through it.

Personally I think spending a fair amount of time on a message board is indicative of some hesitation to interact with people while physically present. Obviously many of us post from work, school, or wherever whenever we're on the go. For me this board is a nice reprieve from the office. Like its the closest I can be with my folks without actually being with my folks. Still for some on here I imagine posting on message boards is a nice alternative to dealing with nuances of interacting with people while being physically present. The older I get the less I want to deal with people. I've always had social anxiety, but as I get older its more like social awareness as I'm quite aware that most people ain't wortha fukk.

Funny though, cuz I still have moments where I just cant because of the anxiety end of it. Where I work, the building has a nice courtyard and in the summer its full of people. I refuse to walk through it. On my lunch break during warmer months, I can't walk very far through town because there's too many people. Now during the winter, I make lunch break journeys, like I'm everywhere especially the colder it is cuz very few people are out. Ironically, I'm the opposite when I see a handful of n!ggas across the street as I can't help but cross the street to cross paths with them. It's a wonder I haven't been robbed yet, or otherwise, but I keep doing it. Especially at night walking by myself to the parking garage. Easy target not carrying but I just cant help it. Been like that since a teen, just have to know wsup with these dudes. No fear there, but I walk the long way to get to a concession stand even if that means a longer distance just to avoid the courtyard.

Another thing too, I'm cool once I'm with people, it's just taking the steps to actually arrive is difficult for me. I'm at a function and I'm straight, but folks have no idea how much I fought with myself to get there, or how many times I started to turn the car around, go home, and entertain myself.