i have a successful job that requires public speaking and interaction
and i have popular friends that go out a lot in LA party scene
and a gf thats very social
and i got a fukin severe panic disorder/social anxiety/mild depression
its starting to cripple my life,
when i go out sometimes in public i start to get light headed and feel like ima feint or pass out, and i can feel my heart rate spike. i wear a fit bit that tracks my heart. when im gettin a panic attack and anxiety, my heart rate goes from a standing 75 to like 130-140
no wonder im feeling sick and like ima feint, my heart is gong absolutely insane
its crippling my social life, affecting my relationships, and limiting my ability to travel.
im unable to leave anywhere outside my city
and i got a wedding in fukin thailand next year, and i gotta go to dallas to visit a friend next year as well
shyts a year away and im already like
i might fukin get a heart attack fo real from this anxiety shyt