I know I made that post long, but that's the way I write sometimes. I thought I made it clear I might have been reaching when I said she chose a brother with my name. Tbh, I was just thinking that may have been a possibility at the same time I wrote that post last night. A lot of things add up when you get older, and you rethink your life, and get to know people for what they're really capable of. I tried to say in not but so many words, that that brother was also kinda alike me too, and I had upmost respect for him since the 10th grade. He was the only brother in that school that ever spoke to me first. Everybody liked him. He was different from everybody else. But he once said something back in the 10th grade that was messed up, especially during that time. He said Dr. King wasn't shyt. He would have been one of the last brothers in that entire school you'd expect to say something like that. So when he got smart with me in our senior year that day, he shocked me again. But down inside I knew he was kinda unpredictable because of what he said about Dr. King back in the 10th grade. For the kinda rough area that brother lived in, it looked like his family may have had a little money. It kinda sounded like his family may have even been connected to the Black Boule, something we didn't even know existed back then. Anyway, I think they still dated awhile after high school. But when I saw them at our 10 year reunion, they clearly weren't together anymore. It looked like the brother was still holding hard feelings. She probably later found out what I already knew about him, and dropped him. I still didn't speak to her because we weren't close after that junior year. Plus I don't remember seeing her too much more in that junior year after she had that period. Maybe it was planned, I don't know. I never really knew what to say to her after that incident. Then seeing them two together so long made me feel like we never even knew each other. I was sought of glad she had a boyfriend after that, because I felt a little guilty for not following up. I know she felt dirty, knowing I saw her period, and backed off. If there was anybody I felt she should have been with, I felt it should have been a brother like him. That's how much respect I had for the brother, and everybody else liked him. But again, he throw me for a loop with that sarcastic remark to me at the end of our senior year. With the story I gave about that girl, you'd think it would have been the other way around.
But back to the sister, you gotta believe me when I said looking at the period turned me off from approaching her. I never was obsessed with her at all. Any crush I had on her was gone before my junior year was over. But for some reason, this thread made me think about her after all these years, and it made me feel a little guilty. So I dedicated a big portion of that post to her, because I completely forgot about her as a possible mate in my life, and how tight we were back then, and how we met, all though it was only a quarter of a semester. But my real heavy crush was on two other girls in high school. One my cousin introduced me to in the 10th grade on my first day of high school, and I froze...man was she cute and sweet. The other was a sophomore when I was a senior, who was more fine that all the senior girls. perhaps all the girls in the entire school. I asked her sister, who was a senior with me, to introduce us. When she did, that made the second time I froze, even though I had experience by then. She had introduced us after school, while they, and a mob, were walking down the hall on their way to bored the school bus...a little privacy would have helped though. She kept getting prettier even after high school, as a matter of fact, she use to call my name out the window in high school, after I froze. Come to learn she was so shy, that people almost thought she was retarded and childish. A few years out of high school, my best friend told me she was seen coming out of a STD clinic. Now I think that was a lie.
That's what I meant when I said I didn't see things that I see now as a grow up. When I really saw what this buddy was capable of doing later, him lying about that girl I had that crush on, doesn't sound too far fetched. And I knew him since I was 8. Maybe that's what he meant that day when we were high in his back yard a couple years out of high school, and he said there where some things about him that if I knew, I would never speak to him again. I know I saw that sister in this club about 10 years after high school, still fine. She even jumped at me. But she was partying with this crew who were kinda like our rivals in high school. Plus she was kinda acting like the way they said she acted in high school. Then I saw here again at the subway, the day after Columbine, and she reached out to me. But I was on my way to work, and I had a lot on my mind, and I was do to have major surgery that very next day. But what always stuck in the back of my mind was my buddy telling me she was scene coming out of that STD clinic. As a mater of fact, I think my buddy said it was an abortion clinic. But today, I think he was lying. Plus he wasn't the one who suppose to have saw her. I've seen brothers put out rumors like this before on fine women, years after I left high school, especially when they hear you have your foot in the door with her.
Like I said, it was that sister at the U of MD, that blew my mind. She was a freshman and I was a sophomore. What's funny was, I didn't even realize she was a whole lot like that girl in high school who had the period, until like many years later, when I happened to think about it one day. For some reason, in high school, I crushed heavier on girls further away on the other side of town. This sister in high school was an exception. But we never got a chance to get anything started because of you know what. Plus those other girls kept coming and coming. We had more fine sophomores that we had fine seniors by the time I was a senior. Btw, I was going to the Blackest school in PG. County, MD at the time.
