Essential The Locker Room's Random Thoughts

[Rhapscallion Démone]

I'm a dark soul. I have dark sided ways. I get evil thoughts. But I do know right from wrong and more often than not, I try to pull from a good place. I also have willpower and let A LOT of shyt slide when people don't think I know. I play dumb a lot just because I want them to feel like I don't know. I don't like conflict. But I also don't like being fukked over when I treat people good. People I actually let in and like. I am willing to help anybody. I'll accept you at your worst and when you are at your lowest and you have no one else and I'll stay by you.

We all have the 'evil'/dark energy that we battle. Whether it's self doubting/depression, addiction, jealousy, being sneaky, gossiping, hating, etc.

I aint no better than anyone else. They ain't better than me.

I feel that, One of the reasons I started posting on here more often than I use to is because I had to unleash my darkside on some family members on facebook. My granddad was on his deathbed trying to be brave while fighting cancer and my aunts, uncles and cousins decided that was the perfect time to fukk with my mom because they were mad granddad made her executor of his estate. They found out quick that they weren't the only ones who had a mean streak the size Wake County lmao. Now every time I log on facebook my timeline freezes for a few minutes lol

 

[ill_will82]

I'm a dark soul. I have dark sided ways. I get evil thoughts. But I do know right from wrong and more often than not, I try to pull from a good place. I also have willpower and let A LOT of shyt slide when people don't think I know. I play dumb a lot just because I want them to feel like I don't know. I don't like conflict. But I also don't like being fukked over when I treat people good. People I actually let in and like. I am willing to help anybody. I'll accept you at your worst and when you are at your lowest and you have no one else and I'll stay by you.

We all have the 'evil'/dark energy that we battle. Whether it's self doubting/depression, addiction, jealousy, being sneaky, gossiping, hating, etc.

I aint no better than anyone else. They ain't better than me.

I agree we all have something dark about us in one way or another. I hold back a lot of what's on my mind but I've always been like that. Believe me I understand the rest...I get it.

 

[Mac Brown]

@Ol' Otis



I saw her first

 

[Aphrodite]

I feel that, One of the reasons I started posting on here more often than I use to is because I had to unleash my darkside on some family members on facebook. My granddad was on his deathbed trying to be brave while fighting cancer and my aunts, uncles and cousins decided that was the perfect time to fukk with my mom because they were mad granddad made her executor of his estate. They found out quick that they weren't the only ones who had a mean streak the size Wake County lmao. Now every time I log on facebook my timeline freezes for a few minutes lol

Lmao Ima tell u a story later that relates exactly to this.

 

[Ol’Otis]

@Ol' Otis



I saw her first

i challenge you sir to a duel

 

[ill_will82]

I feel that, One of the reasons I started posting on here more often than I use to is because I had to unleash my darkside on some family members on facebook. My granddad was on his deathbed trying to be brave while fighting cancer and my aunts, uncles and cousins decided that was the perfect time to fukk with my mom because they were mad granddad made her executor of his estate. They found out quick that they weren't the only ones who had a mean streak the size Wake County lmao. Now every time I log on facebook my timeline freezes for a few minutes lol

Family really show their true colors when illness/death/money comes into a situation. Just like I was telling my mother about how spiteful my aunt is when she sees someone getting ahead in life. My mom is a kind-hearted person who has taken care of everyone in our immediate family. I told her when/if she dies I don't want to be bothered with my aunt because I truly see her for who she is.

When it has come to certain ppl in my life I have seen them for who they are. Which in general makes me not give a fukk about them.

 

[Mac Brown]

i challenge you sir to a duel

 

[Ol’Otis]

"its the last of the drank pull over, can't hear a damn thing sober"

 

[Rhapscallion Démone]

Family really show their true colors when illness/death/money comes into a situation. Just like I was telling my mother about how spiteful my aunt is when she sees someone getting ahead in life. My mom is a kind-hearted person who has taken care of everyone in our immediate family. I told her when/if she dies I don't want to be bothered with my aunt because I truly see her for who she is. When it has come to certain ppl in my life I have seen them for who they are.

Breh you ain't never lied. Your mom sounds like mine, she has always been ride or die for ALL of them! especially my cousins. There were times growing up where I felt pushed aside for them. So when they had the audacity to come at her like they were their parents attack dogs I had to intervene. I summoned all that resentment into a eloquently typed ether lmao!

 

[Cat Lady ☆]

Sometimes I really feel like people think I'm dumb and immature because of the way I act around them. But why should I be my normal self around you when.. me being immature and dumb is the only way I can be around you.
I mean let's not act like the conversations we have are interesting. They're not. At all. I mean shyt, I've had more interesting conversations on fukking Omegle.

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[ill_will82]

Breh you ain't never lied. Your mom sounds like mine, she has always been ride or die for ALL of them! especially my cousins. There were times growing up where I felt pushed aside for them. So when they had the audacity to come at her like they were their parents attack dogs I had to intervene. I summoned all that resentment into a eloquently typed ether lmao!

It's just so much shyt I would like to say but this ain't the appropriate platform and I try to keep my family stuff off here. Believe me I understand. When it comes to my aunt I can't stand her ass because she has done so much shyt to everyone at one point or another in the family (including me).

I told my mother she is too kind because a lot of the things I've seen her do for ppl I just couldn't do. My pops is a different type though. (That's another story)

 

[Pazzy]

I'm a dark soul. I have dark sided ways. I get evil thoughts. But I do know right from wrong and more often than not, I try to pull from a good place. I also have willpower and let A LOT of shyt slide when people don't think I know. I play dumb a lot just because I want them to feel like I don't know. I don't like conflict. But I also don't like being fukked over when I treat people good. People I actually let in and like. I am willing to help anybody. I'll accept you at your worst and when you are at your lowest and you have no one else and I'll stay by you.

We all have the 'evil'/dark energy that we battle. Whether it's self doubting/depression, addiction, jealousy, being sneaky, gossiping, hating, etc.

I aint no better than anyone else. They ain't better than me.

I know youre talking about yourself but i eeriely saw myself reading all that because thats exactly how i am. I'm not that close to most people for that exact reason as I've had plenty of bad experiences opening up to others and having been bullied throughout my whole life. I've always been told and made out to feel by others that I'm "different" like something is wrong with me to the point where they have gone out their way to show that to me so I'm not that open out of fear of being judged harshly and etc. Plus a lot of my pain has actually shaped me. Don't even think that who I am today would be if I didn't go through all that shyt throughout my life. Hell, I think one reason why I even looked at criminal justice, crime related stuff and etc is because of my anger towards certain tormenters in my childhood where I never got any justice or closure where I had to live with the fact that they did what they did and have to live with that happening to me. It just turned into a feeling of vegenance or need to feel protected and secure from harm where I feel absolutely safe from any perceived threat. And even if I had the chance to get back, I don't think I would be able to because deep inside, I don't want to hurt anybody or make someone suffer or hurt the way I have. All the times that I've ever lashed out or been mean or said harsh things were from internal pain.

It's sad because honestly, I just want to let my guard down completely and just let out everything especially my sadness where I can just cry it out but then that fear of being vulnerable around others where they think that they can pick on me or view me as an easy target. I'm waiting for my good will hunting moment like when Matt Damon character just broke down and let all his pent up pain in the end to his shrink. It's just a lot to speak about. It's pretty damn to know that somebody else is the same way and gets it because it seems like a lot of people don't. They are quick to judge and don't even want to understand or can't even relate. Thanks for sharing

 

[BigMan]

 

[Rhapscallion Démone]

It's just so much shyt I would like to say but this ain't the appropriate platform and I try to keep my family stuff off here. Believe me I understand. When it comes to my aunt I can't stand her ass because she has done so much shyt to everyone at one point or another in the family (including me).

I told my mother she is too kind because a lot of the things I've seen her do for ppl I just couldn't do. My pops is a different type though. (That's another story)

Sometimes family will try you quicker than a stranger and thats cuz they feel like you are obligated to forgive them for their fukkery. I can forgive but I don't forget.

 

[CinnaSlim]

This is actually very impressive artwork.