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Paying off the Macy's and Best Buy card in a couple of weeks. Extra $200 a month I will be saving 
This shyt is crazy. I still remember how good shyt was when you mentioned how you two were just looking for a new home back in the day. Crazy how shyt can change and get so ugly. I do not look forward to this at all.
Exactly. 
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That Cherry 7UP, tho...
just pulled a reincar and deleted a bytch from my phone for not replying to my text. I give no fukks right now yall
I'm ditching the NFL for a while today so I can see my wife Sydney Leroux in action against Brazil 
<<TheStandard>>
I Am A God
I think many of us are all introverts on some level so maybe some of you can relate. I'd normally share this with my Shrink but I got rid of her when I somewhat realized it was a waste of time.
I realized this weekend, I've become this person…..
I'm not the most social person and I used to watch the Wire and see McNulty and even Marlo (You ever see the scene where Maurice Levy Tells Marlo he has to retire from drug dealing and Marlo defeatedly replies he has to "give up the crown"
) and feel like thats kinda where I'm headed. I dunno…..I really need to find more happiness outside of "work". I feel like I've become defined by work so much that when I'm outside of it I really don't know what to do with myself. I pretty much live to get up and go to work and chase money…..I'm DJ and do music so I spent a shyt load of time doing that and/or reading about it………but when I'm not doing music….I'm basically finding ways to do work….I've pretty much turned all my hobbies into work. It's weird. I'm a big sports fan and I've pretty much turned sports gambling into a job, I've turned going to the gym into a job, but when I'm not working it's like my life is not really full. It's wild because I have so many lawyer friends and it's the total opposite, they derive much of their happiness outside of work.
I guess I realized it this weekend when my school had it's homecoming. Friday night we had a party in which I Dj'd and that was fun. I always tend to have the time of my life when I'm performing in some manner, doing music, etc.
But Saturday I went to a bunch of homecoming events and I remember just feeling out of place as fukk, bored, alone in a room full of people even though my friends were there. At times I think I was damn near miserable though I did want to hang with some friends. Like I said earlier I'm not the most social person and I'm pretty shy (even tho I'm pretty well known and popular for djing) It was strange….I kinda just didn't want to be there. A lot of times I'd go leave and just walk around or find some excuse to go somewhere else just so I didn't have to sit there and force conversations with people even though my homies were there and I was kicking it with them, smoking, drinking, or whatever. I guess I just don't have much to say to most people. Not that it hasn't been this way in the past but this weekend it felt even more extreme than usual. It made me realize just how much I've totally neglected relationships in my life and it's probably hurting me at this point in terms of a life and I see it's effects on my career at times (considering most of my gigs and opportunities in music come from my relationships with others). I can't tell you how many times I have the conversation about hitting someone up or getting up but it never seems to happen.
All this made me think back to the Jonathan Martin situation and the way Richie Incognito treated him. All I could think of is that dude is a bytch….It just amazed me how someone 300 lb and 6 ft 5 in tall could get bullied and didn't have it in his personality to stand up for himself. I'm 5'6 130 on a good day and I have all the toughness and the dog in to me to stand up to just about anyone but I just not built for it physically. Unfortunately it didn't take me long into my teenage years to learn that. Sometimes I think God truly plays jokes on people in that he creates people and gives them attributes that don't match and conflict with one another almost as a challenge. I can't imagine being 6'5 300 lb and just not having the temperament to step to someone who was messing with me but it never occurred to me that maybe I have similar issue in my life in terms of my personality. I guess that is my challenge…….
I realized this weekend, I've become this person…..
I'm not the most social person and I used to watch the Wire and see McNulty and even Marlo (You ever see the scene where Maurice Levy Tells Marlo he has to retire from drug dealing and Marlo defeatedly replies he has to "give up the crown"
) and feel like thats kinda where I'm headed. I dunno…..I really need to find more happiness outside of "work". I feel like I've become defined by work so much that when I'm outside of it I really don't know what to do with myself. I pretty much live to get up and go to work and chase money…..I'm DJ and do music so I spent a shyt load of time doing that and/or reading about it………but when I'm not doing music….I'm basically finding ways to do work….I've pretty much turned all my hobbies into work. It's weird. I'm a big sports fan and I've pretty much turned sports gambling into a job, I've turned going to the gym into a job, but when I'm not working it's like my life is not really full. It's wild because I have so many lawyer friends and it's the total opposite, they derive much of their happiness outside of work.I guess I realized it this weekend when my school had it's homecoming. Friday night we had a party in which I Dj'd and that was fun. I always tend to have the time of my life when I'm performing in some manner, doing music, etc.
But Saturday I went to a bunch of homecoming events and I remember just feeling out of place as fukk, bored, alone in a room full of people even though my friends were there. At times I think I was damn near miserable though I did want to hang with some friends. Like I said earlier I'm not the most social person and I'm pretty shy (even tho I'm pretty well known and popular for djing) It was strange….I kinda just didn't want to be there. A lot of times I'd go leave and just walk around or find some excuse to go somewhere else just so I didn't have to sit there and force conversations with people even though my homies were there and I was kicking it with them, smoking, drinking, or whatever. I guess I just don't have much to say to most people. Not that it hasn't been this way in the past but this weekend it felt even more extreme than usual. It made me realize just how much I've totally neglected relationships in my life and it's probably hurting me at this point in terms of a life and I see it's effects on my career at times (considering most of my gigs and opportunities in music come from my relationships with others). I can't tell you how many times I have the conversation about hitting someone up or getting up but it never seems to happen.
All this made me think back to the Jonathan Martin situation and the way Richie Incognito treated him. All I could think of is that dude is a bytch….It just amazed me how someone 300 lb and 6 ft 5 in tall could get bullied and didn't have it in his personality to stand up for himself. I'm 5'6 130 on a good day and I have all the toughness and the dog in to me to stand up to just about anyone but I just not built for it physically. Unfortunately it didn't take me long into my teenage years to learn that. Sometimes I think God truly plays jokes on people in that he creates people and gives them attributes that don't match and conflict with one another almost as a challenge. I can't imagine being 6'5 300 lb and just not having the temperament to step to someone who was messing with me but it never occurred to me that maybe I have similar issue in my life in terms of my personality. I guess that is my challenge…….
keep on loving meeeeeeeee
61 Corpses
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Std's and the threat of having unwanted babies, really suck.
