I've given it serious consideration that I'm not suppose to be in a relationship and that I'm meant to be come into peoples lives help them or show them they're worth and then move on.
Even with my male friends I've been the "inspiration" or positive beacon of light.
This isn't a "emo" post at all, its just me thinking out loud and interesting that my calling my not be what I desire.
I should/could be dead a few times over, in jail, and then some coming up....but I'm not and in every single relationship (even the one semi fling) I've had I've built up the women. And with my homies I've looked out for them. I've indirectly saved more lives than I've realized, I thought about this last night and its crazy.
I'd said 2016 I'll settle down, but if that's not my path then so be it. I take joy in everyone I that is either alive or in a better place knowing that I played a small part in that, maybe in 2016 that will shift to more spiritual things

maybe not.
*ponders things more*