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At the beginning of mean streets
once again there is a wedge between me and my goals and what i want.

i realized after looking at my posts over the last week my job just makes me really depressed. maybe it's cause it's even more isolation that what i'm normally used to. the bad thoughts just immediately surface and i feel like shyt.

i really am gonna get the fukk out of here. really wish i was in Atlanta right now like i'm supposed to be.





in more positive news i placed top 4 in an H1Z! KOTK :obama:

Your job ain't a healthy environment for you.
 

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Bro 'nem
once again there is a wedge between me and my goals and what i want.

i realized after looking at my posts over the last week my job just makes me really depressed. maybe it's cause it's even more isolation that what i'm normally used to. the bad thoughts just immediately surface and i feel like shyt.

i really am gonna get the fukk out of here. really wish i was in Atlanta right now like i'm supposed to be.





in more positive news i placed top 4 in an H1Z! KOTK :obama:
That game is:trash:
 

ill_will82

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I wanna give my daddy a kiss on the cheek. :(:o: I do miss him. Plus he would kill for me. Maybe I should be nice.

Just hit my father with that estrangement stimulus package:whoo::banderas:

Well I can't tolerate being around mines very long. Trying to be nice with him is challenging which is why I don't even be bothered.
 

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Bro 'nem
Well I can't tolerate being around mines very long. Trying to be nice with him is challenging which is why I don't even be bothered.
I was raised by mine, mother was the one who paid child support and had visitation rights funnily enough. I don't hate or even dislike him, just don't find him to be a good role model.
 

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What's wrong with his personality?

He's a know-it-all, can't sit down and have talks with him, picks arguments over dumb shyt. He's been in my life but as a kid he could have participated a lot more than he did and tried to listen more. When I was younger it was worse because he had this mentality of "kids should be seen not heard." My mom had to check him a few times about some the shyt he would do. My mother really did the work in building me into who I am.

When I think about a lot of that shyt as an adult it pisses me off because I figure I could have been much further ahead in life. Just because you pay child support doesn't mean your a father.
 

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He's a know-it-all, can't sit down and have talks with him, picks arguments over dumb shyt. He's been in my life but as a kid he could have participated a lot more than he did and tried to listen more. When I was younger it was worse because he had this mentality of "kids should be seen not heard." My mom had to check him a few times about some the shyt he would do.
He was like @Critical Distance .
 

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He's a know-it-all, can't sit down and have talks with him, picks arguments over dumb shyt. He's been in my life but as a kid he could have participated a lot more than he did and tried to listen more. When I was younger it was worse because he had this mentality of "kids should be seen not heard." My mom had to check him a few times about some the shyt he would do.
Similar issues here. One of the reasons it's taking me awhile to decide who and what I want to be. Literally anything and everything that he has or attempted to teach me goes in one ear and out the other. IDC what it is, if it's coming from him, I won't listen and might even do the opposite just because. Dumb nikka thinks he knows me more than I do. Was basically a blank state for a while and had to mold who and what I wanted to be on my own. Been making progress lately.
 

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Similar issues here. One of the reasons it's taking me awhile to decide who and what I want to be. Literally anything and everything that he has or attempted to teach me goes in one ear and out the other. IDC what it is, if it's coming from him, I won't listen and might even do the opposite just because. Dumb nikka thinks he knows me more than I do. Was basically a blank state for a while and had to mold who and what I wanted to be on my own. Been making progress lately.

Yeah with my father and I, I pretty much consider the damage is done and once you get to be a certain age there's no point in going back down memory road. My childhood is over with and I just try to learn to get over it. I dealt with a lot of inner issues as a kid and being a kid with a physical impairment was one of them and that shyt is hard witnessing you're peers getting ahead in life and you're either struggling or nowhere close to doing what they are doing.

I just say fukk it all and move on with life.
 

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